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I thought I was going to be sad about the snow that the snow the DMV got this weekend but it was one of the best things that could have happened to me. From the time I woke up to the time I went to the sleep snow was falling and I don't play around in it, so I sat my butt in the house. Things in DC metro area shut down anyway when it snows so it wasn't any place for me to go anyway.

I got to alone for a change....no friends, family, and men just me and the TV and computer. It was well deserve sometimes I feel like I am in full speed all the time, jumping from one location to another...from one event to the next its rare I just get to sit back and be about me. Lately I have felt like I need to spend more time for me and nothing else. I think sometimes I get so caught up in what everybody else wants me to do that I never really do for myself. I spend most of my free time changing my plans to accommodate others and what they want to do...smh..after i sit here and think about it...I do that shit alot and its rare that others do the same for me...its funny what u notice when u sit back and reflect on things. Sometimes it seems like i can't even take a deep breath without someone asking for my undivided attention and would I breath like that...everyone wants me to be there all...all the time.. every time my email, text orBBM goes off people always want me to jump and answer or read it..gggeeeesssshhhhhh..when do i get a break. The snow falling brought out a big sigh of relief from me...I got to spend my whole day away from the world and about me. I answered no BBM's...no text or emaisl and if i answered the phone it was far and in between... only for my parents, siblings and 2 or 3 of my friends but the conversations were short lived.

I did nothing 24hrs just be me...I didn't take a shower...lol..didn't put any clothes on and got time to handle some financial aide and school shit that I have been putting off forever because I was to busy being everybody's everything from weekend to weekend from weekday to weekday,It was just liberating to have me all to myself with no extra shit included in that equation...sigh....I think I need to do this more often just to keep my sanity going because lords knows sometimes I'm on the brink of having a break down and calling it all off ...all my extra activities..friendships and family. So I have decided for February I'm going to take alot of MIA days just be me. I already have one weekend booked when my Friends come down from out of time but other than that all other Friday and Saturdays will be dedicated to me and what I want to do...which Might just be awhole lot of nothing or it might just me spending time with people i wouldn't normally see because I do seem to ignore some people in my life I need to make time just to be with them Its good to get a wind of fresh air from time to time.