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Each and every year for my birthday I try and do something that me and my friends can enjoy or just act like they enjoy its my birthday just put a smile on your face and go along with it. At first I wanted to take a trip somewhere fun, I thought Vegas if we wanted to do something but if not Atlantic City is far but close and we would still have fun. After long hours of thinking I said myself" Self how about we keep it to a minimal until you hit 30 and then do it big." myself was so right maybe I'll save my big birthday blow out until a birthday that came with so much more weight than this one. myself and I have very interesting conversations!! don't judge me.

In my head i had planned out a night of dinner and clubbing nothing to out of the normal. I made reservations for a Chocolate bar for us to do something a little different its the only one in DC i thought it would be entertaining and dance on our taste buds *pause* and then straight to the club and pop a bottle or two in the club.........................................but today all of that became a thing of the past, it was just to many technical problem with the whole situation. Just too many opinions of what i should do and why I do it. I thought I was putting something together that we usually wouldn't do but now I see why we don't usually do things as a big group. I got half who have no problem fronting a little bit of extra cash for the table and others who are as cheap as can be. I thought the number i gave them was what we usually spend anyway we a dub to get in and usually spend $$ on drinks that range from $10- $15 so it kind of evened its self out but i guess i was wrong. I thought that drinking before we go the restaurant, and I'm sure before we hit the club (sn: I don't support drinking and driving, so will only drink at stop signs,lights and when the car is in park) After spending half of my day listening to all these people telling me how they think that's too much , or its not enough money, or enough alcohol I have decided to call the whole fuckin thing off. I just not going to do anything no dinner , no club just sit at home with MY alcohol and watch golden girls or something of that nature and rethink alot of my relationships with certain people. I guess i thought that for my birthday people would suck up whatever problem they had and enjoy the night with me but i guess I was wrong. I tired to explain to them the more people the less money us to front but they didn't want to hear that one at all. I'm really starting to question some of relationships with people...maybe because I would drop the money with without thinking twice about because that's friends do right. I guess that's what certain friends do...SO I guess this birthday will be a straight chill day after all.