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Every weekend i say ..i'm gonna post picture from the weekend and ....they never make it...but this time they have...LAdies night wit my boo thangs@ the Melting pot!!! I love them chicks!
Tuesday, August 7, 2012
...
I did my usually Monday night routine of lying in my bed and
watching Love and Hip Hop Atlanta. Along
with that my friends and I talk about the ratchetness that conspires the next
morning. Now if you don’t watch it or
just don’t know K.Michelle who is the ex GF of Memphitz who happen to be Toya
Carter’s current husband. Well,
K.Michelle has made it no secret that her relationship with him was crazy and
always high strung, so high strung that one day he hit her. Allegedly, not just hit her but beat her
down. Now on the preview for the next
episode Rashid, who is a friend of Memphitz questions, how sincere the whole he hit me story was. *rolls eyes* that
whole comment struck a chord with me for more than one reason… Who are you to
even question something like that?!?!?! Even if you don’t believe her how dare
you part your lips to say something like that?
Ok, I understand that dude is her friend but really ma’am?!?! Maybe the
person he is now is not the person you can see doing that but you don’t know
who he was before you met him and married your friend. I don’t doubt that he was evolved but doubting
the truth to her story is not the right move.
Personally, I have no reason not to believe her story, he even admitted
to the lesser of him beatin her, only stating he choked her. Now this morning I had a conversation with a “friend”
and I use the term loosely about this upcoming episode and I couldn’t even
begin to understand her view point…period…now I don’t share with every single
friend I have about my past dealings because well everything aint for everybody
but this morning was different. She goes
on a rant of hell, K.Michelle aint got no receipts, no police report no
nothing. Smdh, I’ve been there and I have done that before and when you think
you are in love you never want to see that person hurt or make him look
bad. So I understand why she made the decisions
that she made, I made the same one. It
bothers me that someone would ever question something like that, I know that
some women lie about things like that but I give anyone who makes that claim
the benefit of the doubt. Who in there
rightmind has the time to come up with a story like that and keep it going for
so long!?!?! Frankly, its takes a strong
person to admit to the world I was abused by this man and make moves with her
life and career. Looking past a
situation like that can be a hard task and I know from firsthand experience that
it can be a huge obstacle to overcome and move one…especially with another relationship
if that ever happens. It just makes me
sad to know as a women Rashid would ever go against a statement like that, that
at any given moment or time in her life she could have been in the same shoes
and to be doubted from another female has to feel like…..I don’t think there is
any words to express the feeling one has to experience at that moment.
Monday, August 6, 2012
Tuesday, July 31, 2012
Honeyyyy
Honeyyyyy..It’s ok to be alone. It’s ok not always be
attached…it’s ok to sleep alone at night…it’s ok not to be a part of a couple.
Trust me love, it is perfectly ok to be alone. Take time out for yourself, be a
singular instead of plural trust me it’s ok. Jumping from relationship to
relationship is not a good look for you at all.
You don’t need him to define you or make you stronger I believe you can
do it all on your own. It makes me
wonder about you and what is going or has gone on in your life that you have
become a relationship jumper. I have watched you meet a man..fall madly in love
and move right on in with him., not knowing too much about him. I have wiped
your tears and came to the rescue when that same dude changed the locks and put
you out. I swore that was awake up call for you but in a drop of a dime you
were right back with him. When u finally ended that relationship I was so proud
but then in a drop of a dime we were right back at the beginning…this time with
a new guy and before I knew it in love u came out your mouth and living with
him was the move. I didn’t bother to
voice my opinion because I know you just don’t know what it is like to be
alone. You can’t be happy being a
relationship jumper, you can’t be happy with living from boyfriend to boyfriend
and thinking the slightest feel you get from him is love. Being interested has
that same tingle don’t be confused by it, Love. I am forever your friend but
your friend would love for you to do better…loooovvvve for you to do
better. How would you ever know who you
are if you are always a part of a team, ride the bench sometimes, take a moment
and breathe without sucking in stale air.
Hell, find a hobby besides relationships because to be quite honest you
are not very good at those to begin with.
Ride solo for a minute, let the wind blow through your hair and once the
ride is over find a man…..but don’t jump too fast back into his home…in his
mentions. Define you first ma’am before you define yourself with a man ending
the sentence. I can’t really blame you
too much for your way, I know where you come from, you were kind of misguided I
just want you to make it better, not being part of a pair before you even know
what it is like to be by yourself. Ma’am
you are making yourself way to available to these dudes, you are way too
dependent on them, giving up way too much control…..Do you ever have the desire
to sleep alone…layin the middle of the bed instead of the left side…Do you want
to feel like you are completely on your own, instead of being a dependent and
for that much you could’ve stayed at your mama house.
Don’t be the girl who needs a man, be the girl a man needs.
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Married Men?!?! Why not...
….*sips wine*
HER: I mean I date
them because…well…I date them because I know they are able to commit, clearly because
they already have a wife or girlfriend or fiancé. So I know that he is not a afraid of commitment….
ME: *confused face* what are you talking about ma’am? Commitment..
He aint too committed if he is seeing you in his spare time!!!
HER: *shrugs*
I love her to death, I’m not saying she is a bad person but
lawd knows sometimes I wonder who and why she was hit with the stupid
stick. Was she really trying to give me
a great argument on why she dates men who already in relationships. Ma’am really?!?! Now my girl Smarty is not a
bad looking chick and matter of fact she is pretty damn cute, has a job, her
own place and takes great care of her child so when she makes the bad life
choices all I can do is wonder who and why was she hit with the stupid stick,
cuz at this moment stupid was jumping out of her pores. I usually don’t inquire about her dating life
because we just can’t agree on it but today I guessed I might have just been
bored and wanted to know why. Why would
you put yourself in that situation? Why would you want to be a side piece to a
man and not his main and only girl?!?! I
knew this would be an interesting conversation if she didn’t jump into her
defensive mode and shut up down like she has a habit of during, her famous line
is you just don’t understand and she is right I don’t. Even after our talk I still didn’t get it…well
I understood for my own reasons why she does but not the ones she tried to led
me to believe.
Of course she gave the one reason I knew she would..the sex
is good…smdh…
Me: So you can’t get sex with single men? Is that
what you are saying?
Her: No, I’m saying that attached men just have
more to prove. Single men don’t care they figure hell I’ll just find me another
chick who will deal.
I was kind of shocked of the second reason she
gave me, because she just isn’t the type I would think would seek this out but….I
guess I under estimated her. The power
she feels from the “relationship” is liberating she said…
Her: I control the pace of this relationship, I
make the calls, I says what or how things are going to go. The power is amazing
I’m sure his girlfriend or whomever doesn’t get the power that I have.
Me: I guess *sigh*
Happiness,we all want it and we seek it out no matter
what we will admit to or not but happiness is what we all want in our relationships
and Smarty is no different. I was
confused on how being the other woman makes her happy.
Her: our whole relationship is built on MY happiness;
he does whatever it takes to keep me happy.
From trips, cash to just quality time he is always on it…..*stares out
the window* you know what that brings me back to power….he keeps me happy and
my happiness first because he knows I have the power to turn his life upside
down if I desired to so.
Me: So basically, he has no choice but to provide
you with everything you to ensure your happiness because if not you will make
sure he feels how disappointed he is.
Her *sips wine* well if you want to put it like
that ..Then ok *shrugs*
Commitment…..She knows he knows how to commit…yep
she said that he is not afraid of being with one because he has proved that he
can do it…I guess.
Her: He is not afraid of commitment; he clearly
knows what it likes to be with one woman. So I know when the time comes that he
could be with me….
Me: Oh really?!?! Do you really believe that
Smarty? Like really? Commitment? Committed? Ma’am he is not capable of that if
he is seeing you!!!! He doesn’t know how to commit, he is clearly living two
lives…Is that what you want for yourself….He would never just be about you…ever.
I love Smarty again..to hell and back but this
right here made me judge the hell out of her.
I wonder if she lives in her own little world thinking that an already
committed man could ever be just with her.
If he is willing to cheat now he will do it again and again again, same
script just a different cast. I just
didn’t have the time to debate and listen to her foolish answers so I ended the
conversation shorty after she spoke on commitment. I had heard enough, there is nothing..nothing
good about dating a married man. Karma
is a bitch and I’m just about sure it will be biting Smarty right in the ass
one day.
Tuesday, July 24, 2012
Tuesday, July 3, 2012
You Need A Thug In Your Life?
I didn’t realize how much I love lil scrappy until I started
watching Love And hip Hop Atlanta. I don’t
if its because I love southern men, or I do love a thug from time to time or
the fact that I’m a huge hornball. What I
do know is last night’s episode confirmed that I’m in love with him. So back in the day when I was in love with
thugs Scrappy would’ve been the ideal man for me, the sensitive thug type…the
type of dude who will put his paws on a dude in a heartbeat but needs you show
him so love and affection when he comes home *le sigh* back in m young wild
days n I use to live for a thug or two…they were so much fun..lol..And gave me
the right amount of aggression that I needed.
But those days faded out and I grew up and knew that was not the life I
wanted to live. I just couldn’t imagine
myself still doing hoodrat stuff at 25, or 30 or 35……nor did I want a my future
children to be judged when their father shows up to the parent/teacher
conference with a tattoo on his face….lol….So I woke up one day and started my
rehab process of leaving thugs and their thugs ways alone. But I do like a man with a little thug in him….a
couple of tattoos and on an occasion or tell me to shut the fuck up…smh or as
Scrappy would say I wanna put his paw on him…lawddd *fans self*
Lawd let me come back to reality……*deep breath* Scrappy is officially
my thug crush and it brings me great joy to know that I will see him for the
next couple of Mondays to satisfy my thug love.
Its just something about a street dudes, with pretty teeth, tattoos
covering their bodies, a hot temper and a craszy mother that just turns me
on!!! Scrappy has all of that and I
think I’m in love!! LOL
Could You?
This came about after watching Love and Hip Hop; Stevie J
got his side piece pregnant. Well, of
course me and a couple of my friends had to discuss the show and the question
was asked…COULD YOU STAY WITH A MAN WHO GOT ANOTHER CHICK PREGNANT? All of our answered varied from yes, no,
maybe…only if and so on.
Well, once upon a blue moon I did that…I stayed with a
boyfriend who had went out and had a baby with another person. *pauses for the
gasps* now that is over let me say at the time I thought I was in love, I lived
and breathed him, he was everything I thought I wanted in a man until….He
dropped this baby bomb on me, well actually he didn’t the other chick called me…we
met up and she told me all that I needed to know. Needless to say I walked away from that convo
numb to everything around me. When I confronted
him with my new found information he denied it for a loooonnnngg time and since
I was blinded by his “love” I believed him, we never spoke of that baby until
the day she came into the world. He
jumped up one night and sprinted to the door and I heard from him 12 hours
later when he told me that the baby was his and she had arrived. I remember sitting at the foot of his bed
crying my eyes out and wanting to throw up.
So here I was standing at a crossroad to stay or to go, now back then I
just knew he was going to be my husband, I thought my heart only beats for him
and because I didn’t want the baby mama to have him I stayed. That was one of the worst decisions I had
ever made in my life. I spent the next
couple of months trying to accept this new baby and the fact that he gone all
the time to spend time with this baby. I
thought that I could move from this we could be together I was sadly mistaken, I
envied the attention the attention the baby was getting and couldn’t trust him
as far as I could throw him. If he was
seeing her, which I found out he continued to see who else was he seeing….oh
and that list was long.
If I could do it all over again…I would have NEVER stayed
with him…never ever ever. What is done
in the dark always comes to light and it did for him, once the trust was gone
it was nothing left for us..nothing at all.
My question to you is COULD
YOU STAY WITH A MAN WHO GOT ANOTHER CHICK PREGNANT?
Monday, July 2, 2012
Nails of the week...
So there is a story behind this…..We had a huge storm hit
the DMV Friday night, while I was getting my nails done…smdh…lights go out but
no need to worry my Celeste the best nail tech in the world continued on all by
candle light!! Lol…the struggle was so real!
The Weekend....
In Pictures...
Brunch!!!!!! I was in heaven
No lights...forget it..we hit the pool
My Boo...dying laughing at the world hottest roof top paty..105 degrees
US!!!! I love this pic!
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
*sigh*
Blogging has been a struggle for me lately….mostly because
nothing interesting is happening in my life currently. I take that back
something has happened but I’m not sure I want to blog about it yet and if it
turns out for the better I’ll let the blog world know. One of friends recently disclosed to me she
was pregnant….I didn’t know what to say part of me was crying inside because I
probably will never have that and the other side was extremely happy although
she didn’t act like she felt that way….
I feel like the summer is just speeding right past me. These long days and short weekends have left
me blinking and being right back at work.
I know I need a vacation because my body is tired….very tired…I just
want to lay back on a beach, sip liquor and not have a cell phone nor laptop to
bother me.
I thought I was going to be hurt much longer because one of
my “friends” didn’t show up for my birthday dinner but you know what …I wasn’t I
mean I honestly wanted to be because we use to be so close but now I’m more
like fuck it. I’ve tired…and tired but I
can admit that what we once shared is gone…especially since I haven’t heard
from her since I declined to attend a kid’s party with her.
What can I say about the relationship that I’m in…………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………………..
it is at it’s struggle point for a list of reason but as much as it is a
struggle I love that boy…even with all the disappointments I can’t get him out
of my system…..so I thought but yeah….I’m gonna hold off on that until the
summer plays it out and then revisit we will do.
School is has taken over my life along with work…it is just
not enough hours in the day for me to read these chapters, answers these and
questions and write a paper every week.
Shit I barely have time to eat sleep and work ….
Randomness……
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Friday, June 15, 2012
Songs about Her...I love it!
Now…if you don’t know let me tell you that I’m a rap head if
you jump in my car right now you will find anything from Too $hort to 2Chainz
but wait there is always some good non rap music in my car……that lead us to why
I’m writing this post…
So today I was searching on datpiff to listening to some
mixtapes I have not given any play to and I ran across Song About Her by
Emanny. I have heard of this guy before from one of my friends and I will admit
I paid her no mind and had no interest in this light skin brother……but…I love
this mixtape…Its been for heavy play for the past couple of hours at my desk
and Im sure the men I work with are truly over the cd but IDK!! I loved it so
much that I’m sharing a song or two with you guys…..these are my faves…….
Better Late Than Never
My boo tunred 3 years old this month!!! and i had no clue that it would even last this long...when i started it was because i was bored at my former job but now I really do enjoy blogging and reading some of my favorite blogs...I swear nim going to try so much harder to blog often but everything in my life is actually calm..who knew?!?!? I will knock one out for next week i swear!!!! And I need to get back on my afternoon delight tip...Lawd i miss it...
So once again thanks for reading and most importantly thanks for blogging yourself i truly enjoy all the blogs i read....
Happy Birthday Again U don't like my opion that's fine!!!! wow 3 years!!! let's make it to 4
Tuesday, June 12, 2012
My current thoughts
My feeling got hurt today….and for me to confess to that
must really mean it bothered me. I never
really express or tell anyone when they have disappointed me or hurt my feeling
but trust me it happens and sometimes often.
I was brought up to never let them see you sweat, so I never do. I think sometimes I give too much, I do it
without seconding guessing myself and never expecting anything in return, my
huge heart has gotten my feelings hurt…a lot…a lot…Today is really one of those
days. I spent most of my day excited
about a date that was supposed to happen,
I was excited about the place and just spending some time with a friend without
us checking the time or rushing from place to place. Now this date has been supposed to be
happening since my birthday, yep a month
of cancelling and rescheduling, so when we agreed on today..well actually is
was supposed to be Monday but of they cancelled I got excited…I needed the
mental break it was gonna give me a moment away from work, school, Lil Richmond
just some well needed giggles and conversation. Just as soon as the excited set
in it was quickly put out by the text saying…Yeah, today is not good for me..I
kinda knew this was going to be the way things were gonna go but I rolled with
it. So I spent the next 30 minutes trying to arrange a different day
and time just to the point where it became more a task than anything else…So
opted to forget all about it as a whole it was going to be September by the time this all went down. I set myself up for this kind of hurt feeling
because I have a big heart so I would find a way to make it happen if it was me
and I give others the benefit of the doubt that they will do the same and that
is not always the case. When it doesn’t
happen even for my “birthday” it bothers me and I tell myself it won’t but it
does. I tell myself that ill take mental
note of that and not go above the call of duty for that person but……I always do
anyway. This friend and I have been
friends for 10 years now and this is how it always plays out for me and
them. I know the hust must be strong cuz
im blogging about it any person could’ve done this and I probably would’ve been
mad and then shook it off but this time I couldn’t or just can’t. I guess this just how the cookie crumbles for
me.
Friday, June 1, 2012
Monday, May 21, 2012
Thursday, May 17, 2012
It's a Celebration
Anyway keeping in tradition of my blog let do what I always do….. my grammy award speech *clears throat*….*runs to the stage*
*wipes tears*
First, thank God for granting me another day and another year of life. I once questioned my faith in god after I lost Ro, I see more and more everyday he is always taking of care me.
I’ve learned a lot about myself this year…I learned that I’m capable of forgiving, which was something I struggled with. Also, I learned don’t be scared to beloved and love, I love hard so I’m always scared that its not gonna last but Lil Richmond is holding on strong. He definitely filled a void in my heart that I once had..I thank god for planting him in my life. Last but not least I learned that this year I’m a little bit stronger than I was last year…times have been extreme hard this past year but I got through it and it has made tougher than before.
I got lil bit of plans this weekend..maybe some drunken fun pics will land itself here…we will have to see.
Tuesday, May 15, 2012
They're a Package
*trying hard to find it in the bottom of my purse*
Me: Hello?
Friend: what you doing chile?
Me: At Old Navy before the rift raft wakes up and turn the store upside down
Friend: *sigh* already girrlllaaa you don’t play lol
Me: Yeah, had to cop some stuff for my nieces and Lil Richmond’s kids their bdays are right after mine
Friend: Girl, why u always spending your money on them….they are not your kids
Me: *silence*
Friend: I’ve been with Andrew for 6 years and have never brought anything for his daughter nor do I plan too.
Me: well, that says a lot about a lot of things and I’ll call u later
Friend: to each’s own right?!?
Me*click*
This conversation with her weighed on my mind heavy for days maybe because I really didn’t understand where she was coming from…well I kinda did but was she for real. You been entertaining a dude you say for years and not once thought of his daughter? Like never? Do you think he hasn’t took heed of that?!? Because trust me he has and mental noted the kind of person you are. I was always taught that men with children are a packaged deal, if you want to have a chance with the man. I guess I can respect what she was saying but I would never forget about the kids because who knows those could be your step children or the reason why you will never be nothing but his girlfriend for the rest of your life. Maybe she never got the memo about men with children but she should damn sure read it, because if the kid or kids don’t party with you he usually doesn’t either and I would never want that for him nor me. I asked her what if you were the one with a child who you want him to never take heed of your child? Would that be ok? And the answer made me mad…”I wouldn’t care” but ma’am you should and im sure he does and if he doesn’t what kind of man is that? I’m not a big fan of men with kids but at this age most people have them so I accept it and I never forget about the children at all. I never want them to feel left out of what is going on or rather not accepted by me. I think some females forget that men with children are a package you just don’t get him without the children. It says a lot about your character when you show no interest in the kids, do you think you can marry this man, have his baby and he will forget about his other children ma’am that will never happen..Ever. I would never personally..if I had children deal with a man who could care less about my child, I might entertain but the relationship would be so short term. I Don’t think she knows how hard I judged her after this convo, I mean it spoke volumes to me…huge volumes on the type of person she is and if he doesn’t care about her not being interested in his child the kind of men she likes. When you gain a man who had children, you gain the children like or not.
RIP Basketball Wives
I use to love Basketball Wives, every Monday I would tune in non stop to watch what drama was gonna take place. From Tami and Evelyn to Tami and Meeka I wanted in on it, but this season I couldn’t even bring myself to watch the crap anymore. I only tuned in last night for a brief second to see this crazy shit that all the blogs were talking with Tami. I was shocked by her high school mean girl actions to think she was once my fave on the show. All I could was smh at the actions of Tami who had the nerve a couple weeks ago to say that she is being bullied*confused face* ma’am really?!?! Bullied?! Yeah ok. From the moment Kesha stepped on the scene Tami strong armed her and last night I couldn’t believe the shit that was going down nor could I understand why Kesha ain’t pop Tami Rowan ass right in the mouth. I also read Tami’s weak ass apology for her action and I laughed at how dry it was, she also blamed the producers for the portrayal of her on the show and how they only show them acting crazy. Ma’am its being showed because that is what you did, NO ONE made you steal Kesha purse go through her phone and put on her sunglasses you did that on your own trying to prove that you are the baddest bitch….
I stopped last night and laughed at how these chicks believe that Shaunie is there friend and all she does is furnish the non sense and encouraged the foolishness..She is the puppet master…her name is the executive producer so you know what that means she ok’s everything that is filmed on the show…maybe they forgot that. Do they never take heed that you never not once she anything with Shaunie take place..Nothing..No drama at all…ok that lil incident with Gloria 2 seasons ago but she is also on that payroll too Basketball wives LA she executive produces. Every time I watch the show I get angry and have to turn the station, I can’t believe the stupid shit that goes on…Jennifer gets popped in the mouth by Evelyn’s assistant, Evelyn hits Jennifer in the head with her purse…Tami bullies Kesha, Suzie is just being stupid Suzie it all makes me sick to my stomach, also I’m always trynna figure out why these chicks never react….let me tell you this it would be nowhere in hell that after some of this shit goes down that I would be still on the show and not punched a couple in the throat. The show is pure trash and I knew that from the start but I just hoped that the people casted on the show would see that too but I think they are more concerned on the $$$ and their 15 minutes of fame. With that said can wait until we RIP basketball wives because I’m certainly over the trash!
Monday, May 14, 2012
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