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I got alot of thought roaming around in my head and I didn't know where to start with them so here they are just a tidbit...
- Today I realized that I can't work here anymore! Everyday is a new struggle for me. I hate my job and the people who work here more and more everyday. So my job hunt will be in full speed on 2010 so watch out now.
- The weight I am now is the heaviest I have ever been in my life and i don't like it at all. So I have decided to start a diet on Jan. 1. I need to find a workout partner cuz i don't have one I won't do it. Feel free to join me!
- I wanna travel more next year go places that i have never experienced. Not even like extra exciting place just travel. I have lived in MD all my life and I can't ever remembering about to Williamsburg, VA which isn't even that far so maybe that will be first on my list of places.
- I think I wanna join the big brother/big sister program. I think it will be nice to a positive figure in some child life.
- My Aunt pointed out to me the other day that when I'm having hard time dealing with something I tend to distant myself from others and she's right. My cousin's death made me take a step back and reevaluate everything about life. My bff had a baby and love them both to death I just had to step back from it. Its hard for me to deal with the fact that having babies may never occur for me. I think I'm jealous...I know I'm jealous of the situation it breaks my heart to know that I may never experience carrying a child or raising a baby of my own.
- Auntie also pointed out that when I have dealt with whatever I'm going through i bounce back like i never left....i hate to admit it twice in one blog but...she's right again..Shout out Auntie for knowing oh so well.
- i want to buy a new car in 2010 but have no idea what I want! All i know is it has to have a navi for my travels.
- I met a couple of people over the last couple of months who have changed me alot. I learned from all of them that its OK to open to people so they get to know you better instead of hiding the real me.....
3 comments:
All of those are fab things!! I volunteered for Big Brothers/Big Sisters during my last semester of college, it was a good experience, something I can look back on and be proud! I'd say do it!!
The job and the baby...
The job. I admire that you know it's time for you to leave. So many people stay and become miserable and only those that are bold enough to take that step find true happiness. Stepping out on faith and leaving will open doors you never even knew existed. I wish you all the luck in the world because your REAL opportunity is awaiting you.
The baby. Don't give up! Ever. If the reason is b/c you are not seriously involved with someone enough to want their baby, don't give up on finding that someone one day. I never thought I would have kids b/c I wasn't the girlfriend type and didn't have much trust for guys. When I got pregnant with my son, it was b/c of failed protection and I ended up making a personal decision to keep my baby. Love every minute of it!
On another note...my sister never thought she would have kids because of fibroids and cysts. She ended up getting pregnant even after the doctors said it couldn't happen and my nephew is due in 2 weeks.
Sorry for the long comment. Just don't want you to give up on two really important things in your life that you want.
XOXO
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