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I'm young, black, single and fabulous!!! Trying to live my life to the fullest before its all said and done with . I'm just trying to figure it all out!


Tuesday, August 3, 2010

I remember the last birthday we spent together...I still see his 6' 4 frame holding on to my hand as we walked into the Go-Go I didn't want to be there at all it just wasn't my scene but for him i would do anything for. So if going to the go go is what he wanted then so be it, I tried my hardest to act like i wasn't having any fun at all I spent most of my time standing on the wall drinking and just people watching. When i thought no one was looking i would two step and sing along with the song but the moment he turned around it was back to just standing. He knew it was all a front but he never called me out on it. The last songs was about to play and I turned to get a new drink and he was standing in front me smiling from ear to ear, he didn't smile often so I always remember his smile...he grabbed my arm and said" you gotta dance for my birthday" he yanked me off the wall and onto the dance floor, thats were him and i stayed until lights cut on and it was time to go. Everything after that is pretty much a blur which makes me sad because as the years pass by I lose more and more about him. I know he will always be in my heart and nothing can replace him but i get mad at myself for not remembering everything about our time together. It feels each year gets shorter and shorter without him here....

Today marks another birthday come and gone, another day I wish he was still here. I thought that as the years went on my heart wouldn't ache so much for him but that proved to be untrue today. Truth be told I cry for him everyday...when people don't understand me, when i just need to talk, when life is giving me too much ..tears might not roll down my cheeks but i cry for him, the only man who really understood the only man who i can say I truly love I know he wouldn't want me to cry today rather celebrate the day god planted him on this earth but its had to do so when you know the person will never be here again to bring in all these birthdays with us.

So before i fill this post up with nothing but tears let me just say ...Happy 26th Birthday Roshon! I know where ever you are you're bring in your birthday right!!!! R.I.P.


JStar said...

This brought tears to my heart

Ms Beauty Soul said...

That was a beautiful piece and I'm sure that he was honoured to have you in his life...

Freckles said...

This is a wonderful tribute. Peace and Miracles my sister.


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