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I'm young, black, single and fabulous!!! Trying to live my life to the fullest before its all said and done with . I'm just trying to figure it all out!

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Monday, April 30, 2012

11 Things





Rules:

-answer all 11 questions

-come up with 11 new questions

-tag 11 bloggers



1. If you would live in a movie, what would that movie be?

Sex and the City….I love everything about that movie and to be bffs with Carrie Bradshaw is all the perks I need.



2. When you shower, you sing, I know you do, what's that song?

It’s always some old school slow jam..A little Jodeci..R.Kelly and h-town lol



3. Sneakers or pumps?

So I’m a sneaker head but I do like to get all grily and put heels on…so Both!



4. Why do you blog? What made you start your blog?

I originally started blogging to keep me business at a old job but I later found it a great stress reliever. It gives you talk about what’s on your chest without any interruptions. Oh yeah and I think my girl Bkels for the idea to start blogging because it was hers.



5. "Girl crush", we all have them, who's yours?

Nicki Minaj,Jennifer Hudson Jennifer Lopez and Halle Berry



6. When did you meet your best friend?

Currently I don’t have a best friend per say…My closest friend is a guy and went in high school in 9th grade English class and 13 years later we still a great bond.



7. What's the biggest fight you ever had?

A fist fight out front of my home with this chick named C.T. over my ex dog..smdh



8. The most romantic thing anyone has ever done for you?

A after dark picnic and walk around the dc monuments…he is was a complete jerk but for the one moment he was perfect but why the following day I wanted to kick him.



9. What's your worst habit // quirk, something that even you know it's a bit wrong?

I bite my nails….and currently that I have these plastic tips and I can’t bite I suck on the tip of them.I know I should because of all the germs but I can’t help myself.



10. Which famous fashion designer would you take in a bunker in case of a nuclear holocaust?

Donna Karen! I love her to death…her designs are classic and besides that she is an intriguing person.



11. How is fashion going to look in 2052?\

I think fashion will be a flash back to now with a little space age quirk to it. Fashion repeats itself often just with a couple of changes and that will not. Its usually just updated to the changing times.





Ok, So I hate tagging people in these posts because I never ever have the required number of people but here it goes:

Starla Monae

Diana Boss

Freckles

Monique



1. Who and where was your first kiss?

2. Fist thought comes to mind when you hear any Chris Brown song?

3. Who is your current crush?

4. What is your favorite TV show and Why?

5. Do you believe in love at first sight?

6. Vodka or Rum?

7. If you live anywhere in the world where would it be and why?

8. What quality in a mate means the most to you?

9. As a child what was your dream job?

10. 10 years from now where do you see yourself?

11. What is one thing you just can’t leave the house without?

Day 25

If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?




I probably have the typical answer…well at least that’s what my co worker said but It would be Malcolm X. Why u ask? Let me tell you..His life was cut tragically short and I think he had great things to show the world for the African American community and beyond, especially after he took his pilgrimage to mecca and saw the muslim faith in a whole new life. What would eat?...I would say a 4 course meal….something like the melting pot with fondue a conversation dinner, something that would give us time to talk..speak about a lot of issues that effected him during the civil right movement and how they compared to now.

Yep Another Challenge!!

Soooo..In order to stay active with blogger stuff, cuz lawd knows my life is so boring I'm doing another challenge in the middle of my previous one...I  know i'm just living on the edge..this on eis a little different and won't require me to think so hard about my anwer....

Feel free to join me...

Sunday, April 29, 2012

Day 24

Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.




WOW..things have changed in my family so much over the past 10 + years. My mother was the bread winner and the main parent. She did everything with my siblings and I while my father worked long hours sometimes not seeing him for days. When he was home we spent a lot of time together doing family stuff….fast forward to present day..My father is the bread winner and he is the endearing one. I speak to him every day and we share a lot of laughs together. My mother..well she is mother that’s all I can say about her. We see less and less of each other now everybody has their own thing going on. I can’t remember the last time we have sat down together as a family and spend time. Oh..There are grandchildren now!!! That’s the biggest change.





Saturday, April 28, 2012

Day 23

 List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.



1. Shopping….do you really need me to say why?!?

2. Reading! I’m a bookworm, it take me out of the world for a moment, puts in a place or world or life I would have never experienced.

3. Scrap booking..its true I love taking pictures and then have nowhere to put them…soooo I found a place for them and something fun to do……I don’t have 5..so 3 it is!



Friday, April 27, 2012

Day 22

Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?




5 years from now I hope to be married, and either pregnant or had my first child. Degree will be hand and I will have a career in counseling that I enjoy and not a job to pay the bills. Debt free hopefully, I hope to still be living in the DMV but the ways things look it either going to be VA or GA.



10 years from now Hopefully my children or child is almost ready to leave the nest…In a good place in life, maybe paying a vacation home somewhere and celebrating my marriage anniversary. Getting ready to retire and start cruising the world. Once again praying that I’m living in the DMV *fingers crossed*



20 years from now….very well retired, traveling the world..Enjoying my grand children. Maybe taking some sort of class in something that interest me. Definitely spending 6 months in the states, 6 months somewhere else. Enjoying life and still happily married to my first husband..although I do believe I might be married twice.



Thursday, April 26, 2012

Day 21

If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?


My super power would be mind reading. I often wonder what people are thinking at certain moments, walking down the street, finding a boyfriend/girlfriend cheating I want to know the first thing that comes to mind. Now since sometimes I make faces and say the first thing I think of I would love to know what people are thinking in those moments lol. First impressions are something I also wonder about, what people think after they have they meet you. I also think it would be handy in the dating world..if I was dating to know what a guy or girl is thinking while on the date or if they are fond of you or not it would make life so much easier.

Wednesday, April 25, 2012

Day 20

20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.


1. The funeral of my cousin Tremayne. I might have been 8 or 9 years old but I remember everything about that day to a tee. It was the first real tragedy my family ever had, his murder rocked our lives. Wow..sitting here thinking about it I can still remember what he looked like, the casket color, what I had on and I still remember sitting in my older cousins lap and she crying into my back. It was something I tried to forget but my memory hold a strong hold onto that one.

2. Killing a possum with a stick…lol..my family still talks about that day. I had a turtle in a tank in the back yard and the possum got in there to eat the food that was left behind. I saw it along with my sister who went in the house to tell my father. I was scared he was going to eat my turtle Frank, so I picked a stick and beat it to death. My father arrived shortly after ready to shoot it but he was too late lol

3. My first day of school. I hated my mother for making me leave the confronts of my grandma’s house and off to this foreign place. I cried at the bus stop and when she put me on the bus, I cried even harder, I screamed don’t leave me and she just waved. I got to my classroom and cried some more and then my mother and brother appeared in the door, I thought they came to save me but they let me behind. I spent most of that day crying, I still remember Joseph Banner giving me his teddy bear and tissue, he told me that it would get better. I stopped crying when it was time go home and I was the first one the bus that afternoon. That was the beginning of me hating school

Day 19

19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?


Hmmmm…let me see..It would definitely be an island…Somewhere like Hawaii, St. Thomas, Fiji or the Bahamas I can’t decide. I want somewhere that there is no such thing as the winter..no snow, just blue skies and clear blue water. I want to live somewhere that life is much simpler than the hustle what I say daily, weekly, and monthly. I also I preciate those places so much because they are very familiar to their heritage, if you go to any of those places you can see that. I would make my future children to grow up somewhere that life is simple and they appreciate what they have so much more. Just a break from city life and experience what most don’t in their whole lifetimes.

Why so sad...


Why so sad Kanye?
Ain't this what u wanted?
smdh

Monday, April 23, 2012

Nails for the Week

My rep your city nails!!!
These have to be by far my fave!!
and if you look closely u can see we repped
my city too!

Day 18

Forgiveness is hard an rough area for me, I don’t forgive often nor easily. I usually tell me people that God forgives, I don’t (Rick Ross new album name). So anytime I forgive a person it’s a hard thing for me, it takes everything in me to do. I know it shouldn’t be that way but *shrugs*


The most recent time that it was hard to forgive was like a month or so ago. Our friendship had ended abruptly via email. It wasn’t the friendship ending that bothered but more that she questioned my loyalty to her, now I might be a lot of things but unloyal is not one of them. Especially when it comes to flirting with ones bf….anywhooooo after not speaking to her for a year and a half she contacted me via email, I was gonna delete but read it and basically it was a I’m sorry, I was hurt email. I rolled my eyes a hundred times before I finished it. I fought with my heart and mind for days and finally responded with an email, just an acknowledgment email. I can be so mean and I just wanted her to feel a little bit of what I felt when she questioned my loyalty. A couple more days passed and after not being able to shake the feeling of regret from the email and a little advice from lil Richmond, I sent the most heartfelt email back and forgave her. I will say that forgiveness was very very hard for me, but it just felt right in my heart, the year and a half that went by I thought of her and our lost friendship but never once thought of pursuing to make it right.

Sunday, April 22, 2012

Day 17

What is the thing you most wish you were good at?


Patience.Patience.Patience….I have little to none of it!!! I really want to be so much better at it but I just can’t get a hold of it. I have tried a lot of thing to help improve on it and it has a tad bit, Like the smallest bit ever. However, I have learned how to hide me impatience from other which I couldn’t do a couple of years ago. I’m trying my hardest to get my patience in line not sure how I’m suppose to do..Maybe it a support group for it…probably not.



Saturday, April 21, 2012

Day 16

What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?


I don’t if I have 5 of them but let’s see what I can come up…

1. Completing High school was one of my greatest accomplishments. I had a rough time with school I spent years being totally lost, even got pout into the “slow” classes. It wasn’t until I got tested that my family realized I dyslexic. Being that made school difficult for me.

2. Going back to college! It was a battle I fought for years but I finally did it!

3. Purchasing my first car without any help from my father! I felt a real adult.

4. Learning how to forgive…and look past things.

5. Rising my credit score. It took hard work and many tears but it happened!

Friday, April 20, 2012

Day 15

If you were an animal, what would you be and why?




I would probably be a LION! Why you ask? Let me tell you…. I love wild cats! Hints why I have a tiger tatted on my thigh. I love his wild mane, it reminds me of hair…like my hair after I wash and blow dry it. I love their strong demeanor, when you see a lion you automatically pay attention to him and watch his every move…Attention seeker? Maybe just a little bit. Also, love that fact they are the leader of their packs..I have an control issue, I’m not even gonna lie, I yearn to be in control and a lion has all that, nothing is done without his knowledge or approval. The lion is the ultimate figure for all the things my personality is and can be.

Thursday, April 19, 2012

Day 14 Strength

Describe Strengths you have:


I’m very reliable person

I love long and heart…I guess that goes side by side with having a big heart

I have a great memory!!!so have to keep your lie together when it comes to me.





Day 13 Weakness

Describe Weakness you have:


Well, Well, Well I usally don’t disclose my weakness just becuz I don’t like to so let me just drop one or two that I don’t really care about..

My nieces….they can get away with anything when it comes to their Auntie.

I have a big heart; I will give you the world and ask for nothing in return. Because of that it leave sme open to disappointment.

I’m a panicker! Never call me in an emergency

I’m very emotional, don’t know if I would calls a weakness but anywhoooo I’m not good with tears and sadness..You will me crying and sad instantly.

Tuesday, April 17, 2012

Day 12

A typical day for me varies on the day of the week. Ok Monday –Friday I get up at between 5:45 -6am, I brush my teeth, do hair and eat breakfast. Now that plan changes if it Saturday now I don’t get out of bed until like 11am. I head off to work around 7:10am to be to work, now depending on the day depends on how busy I am. I spend a lot of time at work being everybody’s everything, I work with nothing but men and they can be very needy and demanding of attention and they usually want it all at the same time. Any whooooo…I got to lunch at 1:30pm come back about 2pm and jump right back into work because there is usually some type of confusion especially when I’m gone for more than 30 minutes. My days are long days I work 9 to 10 hours daily; I leave work around 5pm ish and sit in traffic for about 45minutes and then it home. I lay around for an hour and then depending on my mood I will hit the gym. If the gym is the choice I spend 45 mins there and back home to eat, shower and catch a show or two. I try to get into bed around 10 but usually don’t fall asleep until well into the night. And then my alarms goes off and I’m back at it again.




Now if it’s the weekend my days go totally different, I usually have plan for those days…I wake up and wing it. Maybe hit a bar or two Saturday night. Sundays are dedicated to school work….. and that is usually the day I go to brunch with one closest male friends.

Monday, April 16, 2012

Day 11 Pet Peeves

Describe 10 pet peeves you have


1. People who are always late.

2. Gum popping

3. Slow drivers

4. Loud speaker in quiet spaces

5. Repeating myself

6. People who repeat themselves over and over again

7. Dragging Feet

8. Nail biting

9. Answering questions with questions

10. Dirty Nail…especially on a man!!!!



Sunday, April 15, 2012

Day 10

Describe your most embarrassing moment


I was a late bloomer compared to my friends who started puberty far before me, at 14 is when it finally found me. I was in the 8th grade and was so excited to wear my new sweat pants with the matching hoodie, you couldn’t tell me nothing that day. I was prancing myself around school acting all extra cute, when it happened…..I got my period while at lunch. Now I had no clue that I had gotten it and was wondering why some people were looking at me so weird. Me being extra cute just swung my hair at them and kept it work, I got to class one of the girls who I hated with a passion taps my shoulder and whisper “ uuuhhh,,, did you not know its your time of the month” and turn and look at her with the confused face, I hadn’t gotten my period yet and had no knowledge of “that time of the month”. I guess she saw how confused I was so she raised her hand asked the teacher if we could be excused because of female problems and once I stood up the teacher and the whole class knew why. She walked me in the bathroom gave me a pad and gave me the period talk..lmaooooooooo. I couldn’t believe this happened to me at school in my new sweats!!! I wanted to ball up and die. For the rest of the school day I walked around with my hoodie tied around my waist and my head down. I was now period girl!!!

Saturday, April 14, 2012

Day 9

List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how




Ok…so I know for a fact that I don’t have 10 people but ill try to give as many as I can come up with.

1. My brother AC. He has always been my backbone and biggest supporter; he showed me that we can overcome anything.

2. My 6th grade homeroom teacher Mr. Hundley. He got a shy, low self esteem little girl and turned her into the Sunshine I am today…also he taught me a lot about patience, ambition and pride! I wish I knew where he was so I could thank him.

Soooooo as I think it not many people who have influenced me….and as I think not many females….

3. My aunt/God mother Val. There is so many things I could say about her and her influence on me. From outrageous antics..lol….to showing how a mother daughter relationship is suppose to be my aunt did it. She is the shoulder to leave on, my mother when I need her to be and she showed me what loving myself all was about.

4. ….. to be continued

Friday, April 13, 2012

I supported Deisgns by CelestialNails



Last night I attended RAW natural born artist! It was my first time attending the event, it was very interesting a lot of local talent ranging from Photography to Nail Art!!!! Yesssss, Nail Art was there and it was presented by my nail tech/friend Celeste Hampton!!!!! It made me very happy to see her in her element! A room full of naturally born Artist!!!!!!! Oh how I love that girl!! Her booth was very popular much popular than what I thought it would, not because I don’t have faith in her talent but because I wasn’t sure how people take to these “fancy” nails! But like a proud parent I watched on as people came to touch, ask questions and just take in her all her talent. I’m extremely proud of her and thank all the nail gods in world for dropping her in the DMV, most importantly thank our friendship because of her talent it has opened my eyes and mind to awhole another artistic world. Now I don’t have not 1 creative…artistic…creative…or whatever it takes bone in my body but being a friend of hers definitely has improved my love for all things art!!!!




Check out the couple of snaps I caught of her in action…..






 and the finished product....


Make sure yall check her out
 

 and her etsy store

Day 8 passions

What are 5 passions that you have?


I don’t know if I would call these passion…it is nothing that I am too passionate about right now, hell I’m haven’t been passionate about anything in years. I guess you can say these are things in enjoy doing…

1. I’m passionate about my family. I want to make sure that my nieces always feel loved and we all can remain close no matter where we are in the world.

2. My nails!! I love them, they are sort like my babies...lol.I try to take great care of them and keep them pretty.

3. Now I’m not gonna say I’m passionate nor love this but I know it helping me in the long run exercising. Blah..blah…blah

4. Education. I often express how much I hate school because I do but education is important and get ready to hear about how school sucks. I’m gonna go as far as I can with it.

5. Blogging! I actually blog a lot…more than you know..but most of it ya’ll will probably never read, it’s too many watching eye who pop up on here from time to time. So my blogs are out in the blog world…posted anonymous on awhole another blog spot.

Thursday, April 12, 2012

Day 7 Dream Job

What is your dream job and why?




Hard one to answer…..Since I was little girl I imagined that I would one day run my own business back then I didn’t really know what it would be or why. Now as an adult I wouldn’t call it a business I want to own but rather my own non-profit but one on huge scale like Habitat for Humanity. Most working with under privileged children, I wanted to provide them with the kind of support I got as a child. Everything from emotional support, tutoring, helping with college apps and getting them ready for prom, I just want them to have those care free years and not really have to worry about much. It is a huge order to fill but I have recently decided that now is the time to start looking into making this dream a reality.

Day 6

A day late but at least I did it....



What is the hardest thing you ever experienced?




I have written about my best friend Ro and how his death affected me. October 2007 was one of the hardest months and that following year really tested how strong I am. His death changed my whole outlook on life, my faith and everything in between that. He was killed in a car accident, thrown from the car and he died on impact. Never in a million years I would have thought that I would live life without him. The days following his death is a blur to me, I just remembering not sleeping much and being forced into eating. I had no desire to do anything, work was far from mind, and to be honest I just wanted to sleep my life away. I have never in my life experienced that time of hurt or grief, I completely lost who I can, I gave up on a lot of things. His death caused my secret drinking problem that I kept away from anyone who was close to me; I shut them all completely off. Not a day would go by for almost a year that I didn’t have a drink or two or three. That was my way of numbing the pain of his death, one day I confessed it all to my brother and that led to me getting myself together. Almost 5 years later, it’s still a day to day process to heal after his death; he had known him so long and loved him for so long the pain is still present. I often find myself becoming sad by the fact he is not here anymore but I have come to terms with death. Overcoming it was the hardest thing I have ever endured and I have been through a lot of things that could’ve broken me. His death is forever scripted on my heart, mind and my soul.



Tuesday, April 10, 2012

Day 5 Happy

What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?




1. Nail Polish!! Probably wasn’t the answer people look for but it was just brought to my attention there is Washington Dc themed polish and of course Sunshine has brought it.

2. My nieces Kyn and K. I swear them to death, I love seeing their faces light up when I walk into a room. I never knew I could a person that much until they were born.

3. Shoes!!!!! Oh how I love thee, when I’m sad I buy a pair and they make everything right.

4. GCB!!! If you don’t know what that is google it and watch a couple of episodes and it will make you happy too.

5. I thought I would never ever say this but the fact that I’m paying off my bills and collector are not harassing me brings great happiness and joy to my days.

Monday, April 9, 2012

Day 4 - Advice

List 10 things you would tell your 16 year old self, if you could..




1. Things are not as bad as they seem.

2. Take heed to the things your brother is telling you. He just wants the best for you.

3. He is not good for you!!!! Let him go now!

4. Hold off on sex, until it means so much more to you.

5. Patience, Patience, Patience it will get you there faster

6. Stop lying to your parents

7. Focus more on school and less on your social life + boys.

8. You are beautiful, don’t let any man ever tell you different or take that away from you.

9. A “relationship” is not what you have with him

10. It all may not make sense you to you now but when you get older , it will be clear why things happen the way they do. What you can’t make change just make it better.

Sunday, April 8, 2012

Day 3 Parents

It’s kinda hard to explain my relationship with my parents,I share completely different relationship with them.  Of course if you don’t already know my mother and I don’t get along at all..AT ALL.  She leaves out of family functions and celebration, so we don’t reallt talk about anything really, unless its mother related.  Like, I need to know how to stop my nose from bleeding or I have a cleaning question.  She knows nothing about my personal life and I can’t even remember the last time we hugged or kissed each other.  She kind of treats me like the evil step child, which didn’t become so noticeable until I hit my 20’s. Now my father and I speak often about a lot of things, he knows a lot about me and my personal life.  We have dinner together once a week and watch The Big Bang theory often.  He didn’t become this kind of person until my niece was born almost 4 years ago… We girl talk all the time and we share gossip with each other….lol..I jump into his bed and we just watch Aminal planet together, although he can be a complete  asshole from time to time we share a good relationship.  He has tried his best to get my mother to interact with me more but….

Saturday, April 7, 2012

Day 2 Fears

Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.


My three fears are:


Large masses of water, ok ok so I blame my cousin for this because we went to the beach one time as children and he wanted me to go deep in the water with him…I can’t swim so I told him to make sure I don’t drown. Before I knew a wave it and dragged my ass away and I was fighting to stay alive. Needless to say that someone saved me and till the day I don’t party with large masses of water.

Darkness. I never ever.. ever.. ever walk into an completely dark room ever!!! I did that one time and my cousin jumped off of his bunk bed and scared me half to death. He also bite me like a vampire that day..smdh..I scared for life. No matter where I sleep at it has to be some type of light so the darkness doesn’t swallow me whole.

Last but not least…. I never put my feet at the bottom of my bed in fear that Freddy Kruger is going to pull to me to hell with him. Lmao…it’s a crazy fear but Lil Richmond will tell you keep my feet as far as I can away from the foot of the bed. I mostly sleep in the fetal position to avoid Freddy touching my feet.

Friday, April 6, 2012

Day 1 Random Facts About Me

List 20 random facts about yourself

1. My middle name is Lashelle


2. I love dresses, if I could I would wear one every day.

3. I can cry on cue.

4. As a child, I wanted to be either rapper/lawyer or doctor/rapper

5. I call my brother every day to tell him about my day.

6. My feelings hurt easily.

7. I have a lot of random pointless information stored in my memory

8. I scream out YOLO out in awkward situations or just when there is a silent moment

9. I have nothing but girl names picked out for my children and I only want boys..figures

10. I’m kind of anti-social

11. I hate school

12. I put the tip of my nails in my mouth when I’m thinking.

13. I curse like a sailor

14. I have my wedding vows already written…they come from a hallmark card! Don’t judge me

15. I’m a book worm

16. I love old gangster movies

17. I’m a total bitch sometimes

18. My sister had me believing I was adopted for the first 9 years of my life

19. I hate wearing heel but stay buying them.

20. I feel incomplete if I don’t sleep with my blanket.

Challenge Ahead






Well, well,well I have not really been blogging lately. First, because these crazy hours I am not working and the fact my life is sooo dull right now..super dull. In order to get myself back in the blogging spirit I decided to this 30 day challenge I stumbled upon.




30 Day Challenge

THE LIST:



1. List 20 random facts about yourself.

2. Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and explain how they became fears.

3. Describe your relationship with your parents.

4. List 10 things you would tell your 16 year-old self, if you could.

5. What are the 5 things that make you most happy right now?

6. What is the hardest thing you have ever experienced?

7. What is your dream job, and why?

8. What are 5 passions you have?

9. List 10 people who have influenced you and describe how.

10. Describe your most embarrasing moment.

11. Describe 10 pet peeves you have.

12. Describe a typical day in your current life.

13. Describe 5 weaknesses you have.

14. Describe 5 strengths you have.

15. If you were an animal, what would you be and why?

16. What are your 5 greatest accomplishments?

17. What is the thing you most wish you were great at?

18. What has been the most difficult thing you have had to forgive?

19. If you could live anywhere, where would it be and why?

20. Describe 3 significant memories from your childhood.

21. If you could have one superpower, what would it be and what would you do with it first?

22. Where do you see yourself in 5 years? 10 years? 15 years?

23. List your top 5 hobbies and why you love them.

24. Describe your family dynamic of your childhood vs. your family dynamic now.

25. If you could have dinner with anyone in history, who would it be and what would you eat?

26. What popular notion do you think the world has most wrong?

27. What is your favorite part of your body and why?

28. What is your love language?

29. What do you think people misundertand most about you?

30. List 10 things you would hope to be remembered for.



Feel free to join…..

Thursday, April 5, 2012

I Once Knew










I saw that Nicki Minaj quote and it inspired this blog.




I don’t feel the same way about our friendship that I did let’s say 4 years ago. Those years were great years for us, we were friends. If you had asked me then if I thought that now we would barely be friends I would have called you a liars but as the world works we are not the best of friends anymore…sometimes I don’t even think we are friends. I’ve learned a lot about myself the last couple of years, I’ve changed..they changed nothing is meant to stay the same forever. I often look at one of my fave pictures of us and can’t believe that we are not even nearly that close at all. I will take responsibility for some of my actions in our friendship, true; I stopped being so available, true; I found time for my other friends, true; I got new friends. I recently sat in a room with 3 of my former close friends, I sat in my corner and watched them interact with each other, I don’t think I was jealous…well I know I wasn’t jealous more sad that we have gotten to this point. One of them I completely don’t speak to anymore and she was the first one I befriended. She and I had been through a lot together, the good, bad ugly and when she got pregnant I stood by her when her baby daddy backed out on her. Although we don’t speak I have no ill will towards her, we didn’t have a big blow out, just a simple we don’t speak anymore. Some of that we don’t speak anymore is because of some things that were brought to my attention by another party, Now that hurt my feelings and I still carry that to this day. Maybe a year ago I attempted to work things out but she played me to the left and last night when I walked in to the bar and she was there I played her to the left. I half ass spoke to her and never really addressed her, ok truth moment I’m a mean girl and when I cut you off I make it none that we don’t speak….and nor did she speak to me. Friend #2 came along after friend #1 matter of fact they are friends because of me…..funny huh..i don’t speak to one barely speak to the other and they talk all the time. #2 is kind of a hard situation to iron out, I think she believes that we aren’t good friends anymore because of her boyfriend, he is a little tiny bit part of the problem but there are other reasons to company that too. I took a step back from our friendship re evaluate the situation, a lot of shady went on, a lot of forced situations took place and I got tired of it. And things became hugely real last year at my “birthday dinner”..but that is a different blog for a whole another day. Last but not least is friend #3..what can I say about her is that she makes bad life choices, also I learned from trial and error that I couldn’t tell her or #2 much of anything because it was just getting repeated to each other. Then who is made out as the bad guy.. ME..#3 and I were never as close as 1 and 2 , things came to a end for us when she became something like a hater when she found out about me entertaining some lil young dude she knows.

Last night a part of me almost wanted us to smooth things over but the other part told me I was better off without. Of course I have a couple of female friends who are not them and I love them to death, we have good times together but it is nothing like what I use to share with them. I read that Nicki quote and it made me think of them…not saying I don’t love them cuz I do , it just is crazy when people who share something with turn into people you just know. People that you see passing in the ways or when a birthday or wedding is taking place or when something tragic brings us with one another.

Well like it is always said…all good things must come to an end and this is no different.

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I haven't posted my nails in awhile and i'm absolutely
in love with these.  Wale inspired....my Trayvon Martin
tribute nails


A Nail Artist Tribute for Trayvon Martin


Unless you have been under a rock or just donn't really care you have heard about Trayvon Martin.  I think has weighed heavy on my mind since I heard about the incident that has changed alot of people's lives.  I am a strong believer in standing up in what you believe and I want justice for not only Trayvon but for every young African American male who is faced with kind of injustice everyday.  Trayvon could've easily been my brother, nephew, cousin, and god son.  With that  said I didn't have to think twice when my nail tech Celeste called asked me take part in her tribute to Trayvon, its her artist view on remebering Trayvon and what we fight everyday.


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