Wednesday, September 30, 2009
When I was younger I just wanted Prince Charming to whisk me away on his white horse and live happily ever after. Now I just want Prince Charming to whisk me away in his white Escalade and we just a good week...then a good lifetime....well,if it last that long. Now I haven't thought about my Prince Charming in along while but then I checked the mail yesterday and there it was...A WEDDING INVITATION!!*cue the dramatic music* Weddings always remind me that my Prince Charming has yet to find me. Now if you had asked me 10yrs ago if I thought that I would be single and not any kind of serious relationship at 26yrs old, I would have told you no not at all. Back then I had it all planned out in my head...I would have my degree...be teaching...driving the car i want..be with the man of my dreams and planning a wedding by now. Clearly none of that is what happening right now. My Love life is so uneventful right now! I go out of a couple of dates with men who aren't even worth my time and then I cut them off for more reasons than one and then its right back to the same ole same ole, which I am so bored with right now. When I meet a dude and feel like he has potential to be something more he proves me to be wrong and then its over....back to square one it is. never in a million year I would think that I would be sitting here blogging about having NO PRINCE CHARMING!!! :-( At one point of time I thought maybe I was ME...Maybe it was ME who needed to change something about myself to find a guy worth my while....but i soon realized that changing me wasn't going to change them, and if he can't accept me for who i am...then the hell wit em. I sit at all these damn bridal showers and bachelorette parties with all these happy relationship heffas and wanna pop all of them in the mouf and each and every time they ask the same question from the time before..So when u getting married?...and I have the same response every time...When my million dollar man shows up!...lol..but truth be told he doesn't have to have a million dollars for me to love him..but it would be nice. He just has to be himself and accept me with all my faults and my attitude which can be out of control but I'm working on it.
Sometimes I sit and think make I already missed out on my Prince Charming maybe he was a frog at first and I didn't stick around long enough to find out he was a Price....or maybe he'll in a another city or country waiting for me to move there so he can confess his undying love for me....or maybe he's a different race then me, which is perfectly ok cuz i like brown, yellow, Puerto Rican and Haitian but all the guys I date right now are African American or maybe I lost him to another female who he doesn't know how to tell that he not that into her or sadly I lost him...maybe he died years ago I never got meet him or maybe I did and never got to tell him....Those are things I wonder about since all my friends are in serious relationships!! When is my turn?!?...When will I be happy in a relationship? Because This Last relationship i was in was far from happy! I was Happy when it was over...sorry buddy..better luck next time?...I guess. I know u don't need a man for happiness but It would be nice to have someone to share my happy, sad and mad days with instead always looking for my friends to hear me out. It just would be nice to have a warm body laying next to me at night and not some dude who i want to send away ASAP!! lol... So in the word of my sister form another mother Epitome ...Is it too much to have a big peen male version of me? I'm starting to think it is".
Tuesday, September 29, 2009
The Alliance for Lupus Research is one of those foundations that I keep close to my heart. My Aunt currently suffers from Lupus and As a child and adult it one the hardest thing ever is to watch her suffer from this disease. She has good days and bad one but when they are bad they are real bad. For all of you who don't what Lupus is...Let me drop a little knowledge on you so you can get an better understanding...
Lupus is a chronic, autoimmune disease that can damage any part of the body (skin, joints, and/or organs inside the body). Chronic means that the signs and symptoms tend to last longer than six weeks and often for many years. In lupus, something goes wrong with your immune system, which is the part of the body that fights off viruses, bacteria, and germs. Lupus strikes mostly women of childbearing age (15-44). However, men, children, and teenagers develop lupus, too. Women of color are 2-3 times more likely to develop lupus. People of all races and ethnic groups can develop lupus. There is no way to cure Lupus just manage it with Medication.
This year on Nov. 7Th 2009 the walk to cure lupus will occur in Washington DC and One of my Friends will be walking not only for all the people of the world that suffers from Lupus but more importantly his mother who lost her battle with Lupus in 2005. He needs our support in raising money for the cure. His team goal is $500.00 and Currently his team is at $125.00. You don't have donate alot just a dollar to his support but it all would be greatly appreciated.
Click that Pic right there..... To show your support! Thanks.....
So I thought and thought and thought.....and it hit me..Why don't I be the the biggest feminist of all time ...THE FEMALE PRAYING MANTIS!! Yes my girl the mantis!!! She is truly all for woman's rights. First she is much stronger and bigger than her counter part the Male praying Mantis...She's much prettier than him too.her beautiful neon color and he's just brown. blllaahhh. she stands alone...u will never see her hanging any type of group just walking around doing her own thing and last but not least she mates with him and them PPPOOOOWWWWW bites his head off!!! yyyyyaaaassss I love it. She gets what she wants and tosses him to the side..You Go Girl!
Every women across the world should be empowered by her!!!! yeeesssss.... the Praying Mantis is my role model...lol..
Dear Young Warriors fighting the wrong wars! Killing each other is definitely played out. Being hurt from the lost of a love one was never cool. Dear Young Warriors fighting the wrong war! I know that feeling , that frustration with life and needing to take it out on someone, any one. But….
We chose the dumbest things to go the hardest for. I remember seeing deaths over 8 ball jackets, fila’s , and name plate chains. Deaths over “he say she say”!!!!! “I’m from This block or I’m from that block”, or “my moms n pops is f*cked up now the whole world gotta pay”!!!
I remember feeling like I was the hardest “n*gga” breathin. And I couldn’t wait to prove it. But let’s think. What r we really proving?? And proving what to who?? Everybody knows Chicago breeds the strongest of the strong but I just feel, me, being ya brother from another state feels your pain as if I grew up with you in ya very own household.
You have the ability and mind power to change they way we are looked at. Look who’s watching us young warriors, look who’s throwin us in jail constantly, look at the ignorance in the world. Look at the racist dogs who love to see us down. Lovin to bury us in the ground or in jail were we continue this worthless war on one another. Young warriors…. We are WASTING more and more time. We gotta get on our jobs and take over the world. Cuz This movie left the theaters years ago, Juice, Menace, boys n the hood , blood n blood out, Belly!
When we see each other why do we see hatred? Why were we born in a storm, born soldiers, WARRIORS….and instead of building each other up we are at war with each other.. May the soul of this young person find peace with the almighty. I’m with you young warriors. You’re me and I’m you. But trust me! you are fighting the wrong war.
Monday, September 28, 2009
Today while cruising' round on FB I ran across one of my oldest friends current status and It kind of made me sick to my stomach..this what I read....
"GIRL YES I HAVE A PROBLEM I WAS SITTING HERE THINKING AND I REALIZE ALL MY SHOES ARE LIKE $200 OR MORE AND ALL MY JEANS ARE EXPENSIVE AND I WEAR ALL NAME BRAND PURSES I HAVE A PROBLEM THAT'S NOT GOOD LMAO !!"
So many things went through my mind when I read this like..Was she serious?!? Is this what we as women have come to? Let say this before ask you guys what u think....Now her and I have been friends since we were probably like 9 or 10 years old. She grew up just like me in a two parent household who worked hard to provide for us. She was not anyway was born with silver spoon in her mouth and was accustom to that kind of living.
So world let me know the first thought you had after readying that statement...I wanna hear from YOU!
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
My Girl Angela Giles...check out her blog..-->Slow Mondays<-- is an finalist for an amazing scholarship from WEEN<---ahead and click that there to see what they are all about! She needs our help to make sure she wins it, to further her education!!! So VOTE VOTE VOTE for her!!!! Knowledge is power and we gotta make sure she gets as much knowledge as possible!!!
Polls close September 24@midnight....make sure u get your vote on before close out time and tell all your friends and family to do the same!!
GO TEAM ANGELA!!!!!!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Who decided Lil Wayne was a catch ? and why do people keep having kids with him?
Why do people who drive slow always and I mean always get in the fast lane? and then get mad when you pass them?
When will PETA let Micheal Vick live his life?
How much is enough money?
Would the world have been just as Mad at Kanye for interrupting Keisha Cole instead of Taylor Swift?
When will men learn they will never win?
What ever happened to Another Bad Creation and Subway?
If Jesse Jackson is a Reverend..Then how come i have never seen him give sermon? and not at just at a funeral
Who told Kanye that damn swirly shit that is shaved in his head is fly?
Has anyone ever heard Amber Rose speak before?
Is Foxy Brown still going deaf?
Where the hell is Chingy at? Does he still make music?
These were just a couple of things I was think about while I was still here trying make it through this long ass work day...Sorry?
Monday, September 21, 2009
Hill Harper..Oh how I love thee!!! He's a sexy well educated man, who some of you might not know attended Harvard Law with President Barack Obama....That just showed Hill's age..43! And I doesn't hurt that we share the same Birthday May 17!! Shout to all the Taurus' of the Blog world!!
Friday, September 18, 2009
Khaki asked me a couple of days ago why Bird and I aren't together, and didn't have real answer for her. Usually when people ask me that question I stray away from it, for the past 7 years I have heard that question countless times from countless people and I never have a logic answer for them.
Last night while talking to Epitome about any and everything, I had a Eureka Moment! Now its not a answer to the age old question of "Why Bird and I aren't together" but its a start to the quest for the answer lol.. I realized that the bond I share with Bird runs deep...real deep. Over the past seven years we have been through a lot together. From him travel back forth over seas to death he has always been around to ease or make thing better for me and vise versa. Every boyfriend I have had over the past couple of years could never compare to the relationship I share with Bird. He's one of my closest friends, one of the few people who understand my method behind all of my madness. I see now that I push other males away from me, I keep them I arms length because I try to keep my pathway to and from Bird wide open, I never let any male stand in the way,which I don't know if its a good thing or bad one yet. A part of me feels like I owe Bird that much for all we have been through. Don't get me wrong I do entertain other men, I just don't sit around and wait on him to decide to commit to me but I will say one of the main reason I have no boyfriend is because I always think to myself what if I be with someone else and he decides I'm the love of his life wants to be together....what do I do..Do i break up with the person I'm with to be with Bird or Do I just let Bird go and continue on with my relationship?...See so many question. I decided along time ago I didn't to be put in that situation so I keep my pathway wit him wide open..
Shout out to Khaki for realizing when I talk about future plan he is always included in that..OK OK and she's right I have no real reason for us not to be together..its just me being me. shhhhh..don't tell her that!
Shout to Epitome for having me crying last night..after I told her not to!!!*wiping tear*
Thursday, September 17, 2009
She was apparently still mad about an incident that happened while she was here and I think she felt some type of way about it because I never apologized for it. Which I felt was unneeded because we are both adult but I guess she didn't see it that way..so let me tell u what happened...
Kyla came back home to DC and asked to stay with me while she was here..Cool why not..she not originally from here but lived here for awhile when she was dating her ex bf. So i get everything ready for her to be here...bed, food, clean towels the works. I took her out a couple of time while she was here and everything was good. Now she never told me her whole purpose of coming back to DC was to try and get back with her former BF Lonnie who happens to be one of Birds friends...go figure right. I didn't want to leave her out when I did some day time event so one afternoon I took her to a cook out and who was there...LONNIE! Now me i thought everything was everything because she hadn't talk about him in the whole time she has been here. I thought she was long over him but hmmmmm..I was wrong. She caught instant attitude and requested to leave which I did do just because she was my guest and didn't need for her to act a fool at someone elses house. Now later on that night she went out with some of HER friends and i went and chilled wit Bird and Lonnie...She finds out and calls me a traitor and rude!?! Me never..Rude maybe but Traitor have never been. But I'm a good friend and looeds past that cuz she was only here for 1 more night after that. The night before she leaves she calls it in early so she can get up wit the birds to catch her flight..me..im not tried so Bird calls for a lil midnight action and I roll out. She was well asleep when i left so I posted a note for her and got what I needed....
Now I'm thinking we are both adults and me leaving this grown ass women alone in my home while i handle some business would be fine. I made it back in the morning to drop her ass off and everything worked out..right..Kyla didn't see it that why...so today she calls me venting once again about nothing...says I'm rude for leaving her alone to voyage off to a booty call, she just can't understand why I still see Bird after what Lonnie did to her...huh?...what does that have to do with me or Bird? and that i hurt her feeling when i took her to a function that included Lonnie...SMH...Come on Kyla....don't blame me for your broken heart and not being able to conduct yourself because Lonnie is around or is it because you were on some thin line between love and hate shit and Lonnie wasn't fucking wit u. Maybe it was the fact that two days earlier he told u that u and him will never be again...I don't know what it really was but we are grown ass women grown ass 26yrs old women who should know how to manage yourself in front the ex, put your game face on boo.
Now the booty call thing i don't think I was rude or wrong for. You were sleep, u are grown and can be left alone and before u say it...I wouldn't care if she left me to get some peen! u got to do what u got to do sometimes. I would encourage her to get it before I find her rude for doing so.
Apologizing NO!! i apologized to her for feeling the way she felt but never for my action didn't feel like I needed to....so my question is...Was i rude?
Tuesday, September 15, 2009
Thursday, September 10, 2009
So my question to you all is Would u marry a man u didn't love because he provides above and beyond what u are use to or Would marry a blue collar man who you are deeply in love wit but money is something he doesn't have?
I want to hear what u got say...
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
Why you ask? Don't get wrong the girl loves to get licked!! but If you are serving me the Dick up right I prolly won't even think about the oral for awhile. I don't know if any of ya'll have everexperienced Good Dick but that shit can be life changing. When I find good dick I usually try to hold on to that dude for a minute!! Lord knows the next time you'll get it like that. Now good head can be life changing too but I feel like if the head is good but the dick isn't then you are just setting me up for disappointment.. Don't give me good appetizer and the main course be lame. I can deal with the head not being so great if you can make up for it in the sex department. Just my opinion!!
So question is who you guys rather have Good Dick or Good Head??? drop me a comment or two and let know!
For the past two weeks every time my phone rings at 6pm its you!! why is that? Please tell me why. I thought A month ago when you took it upon yourself to call me and inform me that you have a girlfriend now that was going to be the last time i heard from you but SURPRISE!! It wasn't. I hope you don't think that you having a gf changes how I feel about you but it doesn't. Let me inform you that what we had was nothing, I just had you around to entertain myself. I never had any feelings or bigger plans for you...Sorry Love! So you calling me everyday thinking that I might want you is becoming old fast..real fast. You keep calling wanting to talk to me about you girlfriend and her craziness but I keep shutting you down wit that shit. I said it once and let me say it again don't get the game twisted and let your Lil gf fall into my world because it will be a sad situation especially since I know she has been inquiring about my who, what, when, and how of me. Please inform her that all of that is NO,NO. She can 100% keep you all to herself and I mean that from the bottom of my heart.
Please make sure this is the last time I have to reintegrate all of this to you ! I told u in a minute I'm going to restrict your phones calls to once a month but i prefer if you wouldn't call at all, please no email or aim just lose me all together that would be perfect. My Love..I'm so out of your league please realize that. I was trying to broaden my horizons in 2009 and do something different and that's how I ended up with you! So now I got you on my back and can't get you off. So from this moment on just cut me off and go on your way. I will even give you the pleasure of telling everyone you know YOU cut me off and not the other way around just to give yourself a little glory!!!
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
San Diego Chargers star outside linebacker Shawne Merriman was arrested Sunday and accused of choking and restraining his girlfriend(did they say girlfriend?!), reality TV star Tila Tequila, as she tried to leave his suburban home.-source:huffingtonpost.com
I had to read this shit twice on Sunday morning when I was checking my daily news reports. Is Shawne serious? Tila Tequila, your girlfriend!!! Why oh why would you try and wife this ole hoe bag. Did he not catch all the seasons of her horrific reality show when she had men and women competing for her love....I say more competing for her vajayjay. It was pure trash and Me a reality TV junky couldn't even sit down and watch that fuckins trash. So why oh why Shawne would you try and save her...as the song goes don't save em they don't wanna be saved. Tila claims that Shawne choked and threw her on the ground when she tired to leave his home. Shawne later says in a press release today that he never chocked her just tried to restrain her from leaving because she was intoxicated and didn't want her to drive home drunk...So sounds believable to me Shawne. Especially since Ms. Tequilla claims she doesn't drink because she allergic to alcohol!?! Heffer are u for real?! Is that so....well I clearly remember her throwing them back on episodes of her show and while searching the web I also found this..
I thought he didn't drink sweetheart!!!
I don't know how much of Ms. Tequila's story I can believe especially since this was the same chick who was stalking Ray J, posting on her twitter that he was her boyfriend and that she was pregnant by him. Needless Ray J denied it saying she was just his friend and that he wasn't the father of her child. OK no baby ever came along and.....so lets fast forward to present day....maybe baby girl doesn't know the difference between just fuckin' and a boyfriend maybe just maybe u were just these two men's fuckin' buddy and nothing more. So furthermore I am praying to the bunny god right now that Shawne was not trying to bun this joint up cuz is would be FAIL for his ass. smh
Friday, September 4, 2009
After i told that story again to my cousin for the thousandth time the debate got even more heated. I personally forgave Dog along time ago for what went on between us. He didn't realize that he had an problem but I did, so its his choice to get help or not and I'm about 90% sure that he never did. I was never really mad at him more mad at myself for staying. The first time it happened it should have been the last time but I can only change present day not the past. So when it comes to the matter of Chris Brown I never think its okay to hit a women but i do give him the props for recognizing that he has a problem and needs to seek help before it gets even more out hand. he's a young man and has time to change so I support him and hope all works out for him!!!
This was just something i need to address so i wouldn't have to talk about it ever ever again ...thanks!
Thursday, September 3, 2009
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
Since I have had nothing at all to do today and I don't want anyone in this office to talk to me, Ive been talking to my cousin Ne'Kiah on AIM. So everyday we have a different topic we touch some are just plain ole stupid because Kiah is wild and others are it guess u can say valuable but not today ...lol..we got to talking about what we please don't want dudes to do when trying to get at us so here is the list we came up with....
Please don't mistake me of giving you the eye becuz i glanced at you in the club/bar. Trust me I wasn't just trying to locate my friends!
Please don't get to talking about all the shit you got....So yeah baby I got a Escalade sitting on 22 chrome, i got a condo downtown and I only wear Gucci. N*** plz who fuckin cares sure not I . Plus niggas who getting never talk about it!
Please don't mistake my kindness for weakness just because I didn't curse your ass out off the break for doing something stupid doesn't mean you got one over on me. It just mean you ain't even worthless the breath.
Please don't tell me about all the money u sitting on. you don't even know me that well for all the that, for all u know I'm FBI about to get your ass.
Please don't be so damn thirsty that after i shut you down u keep trying to get my number. I told u no about an hour ago and I still haven't changed my mind.
Please don't try and holla with stank ass breath! plz check yourself before you reck yourself.
Please don't tell me that I look like someone you know!! really..is the best you can come up with.
Please don't get mad at me because I shut your ass down..all those u ain't cute anyway shit, fuck u bitch etc.....just makes me laugh at howhurt your feeling our, and trust me we have been called worse things by better people.
Please don't try and be my current boyfriend when you clearly are my ex for a reason sweetheart!! not going back to you boo.
Please don't think because you sent me a drink i owe you anything. Cuz I don't.
Please don't tell me your car is in the shop when u clearly don't have one. What u going to do a month later when u still ain't no car??U gonna get dismissed.
Please don't tell me your mama lives with you. Anyway you look at it boo your mama is there so I'm not!
Please don't try an holla at me if you got 5 kids by 4 different baby mama's cuz I aint wit it.
Please don't use the word swagga when talking about yourself. FAIL!!! who does that.
Please don't think your sex is on point because no female has ever complained. Maybe she didn't to your face but don't put to much on the dick if you don't now for sure.
Please feel free to add yours. Kiah and I decided we were going to email this list to every dude we know hoping to start a whole PLEASE don't movement....
Tuesday, September 1, 2009
These are my bunnies and F*** with them to the fullest!!! I can't even function in my everyday world becuz I'm loggin into to twitter and blogger everyday to see what the hell these heffers are talking about!!! and the bunny gods know we talk about eeerrrrrryyything! So get at em!! We da besssssss!!!!
My ride or die bunny!!! She is always ready wit her vaseline, bandana, and sling shot! Lord know we are going to have to bail her out a time or two! You got to love her!
My bunny from the other side of 95! Always straight to the point and blunt. She reminds me everyday about cutting down on my salt, alot of HP out here!! lol...
Check out her blog..Not All Baltimore Chicks Are Stupid..
My west coast bunny! I often forget she is in another time zone...shit i just thought she never slept! I can always count on a glass of Ciroc and some pure fuckery from her!!
Check out her blog..This Mu'fucka Right Here..
My bbm bunny! Bonita Crocker is always whipping up a dish or two for the world to share. She must know I can't cook and need her masterpieces to land my million dollar husband. I can always count on her from pure comedy from voicemails to tweets she always keeps me entertained!
Check out her blog...My Thoughts
My MIA Bunny! She is always dippin' on us, spittin' a line or two and then she out....but back again to pick up on whatever the topic is! I can awlays count her to agree with me on how we hate our jobs and our always ready to go home!