NYE

So its New Years Eve and I don't have much to do tonight..no clubs, dropping big $$$ just a lil get together with some friends. I might not have an amazing outfit to wear but I do have the nails!!!




I'm in love with these although i'm not a fan of holiday themed stuff once she put these on my nails i couldn't help but stare at them. Happy New Year and be safe out there..catch you in 2012!

All I Want For X-Mas....

This Mixed Race Rocawear Barbie!!!!!!!!!!



“As a Barbie doll designer for more than 10 years, I want African-American girls to know that dolls can represent their career aspirations, hobbies and ethnic backgrounds. Barbie inspired me to realise my dream of becoming a designer, and I want my dolls to inspire girls to play, create and live out their dreams,” explains Stacey.

They are only available in the UK!!! *cries*

No One Ever Said It Would Be Easy...

And they were right about that!! When I got myself into this arrangement I didn’t know it was going to be one of the hardest tasks I ever tried to achieve. I jumped right in head first without having any knowledge of how to make this thing work….and work is exactly what it is. 2 hours away doesn’t seem that far away but ohhhhh it is, there is no late nights sleeping at his house nor let me stop by to see what you doing going on around here. Everything is basically planned out to the last detail. Weekends have to be set aside, plans have to be made and schedules have to be checked before spending time together , it is almost like having a full time job. We are living in two different cities, in two different states and both have things to accomplish in our cities..plus he has children Two children that has to have some time too. I thought walking into this that I had this all under control and maybe after 6 months of it, I realized that it was not easy at all. Everyone told me that it would not be easy at all especially when there are children involved. Although I would love to have all his undivided attention I do know that kids need it too so I often play the background to the whole quality time thing.

The long distance thing was already hard but Lil Richmond being sick only adds to the struggle, I didn’t have to think twice about being there for him but it is all on me now. The driving two hours is all me now…..rearranging my plans is all on me now. I would never ask him to travel away from not knowing how he may feel by the time he gets to DC. Let’s just say that just made it even harder. I decided that I wouldn’t bring up this whole much harder that it should have to be subject until after his January Doctor’s appointment that’s the big one to let him know what he is suffering from. I love him to death but long distance thing is showing to far more difficult than I think it should be. There is no structure in this arrangement no set times a month we gonna do this….what days …it is all just done on a whim and if I let him lead it would be done on a blue moon. I was asked a couple of weeks ago is it even worth the hassles and for the first time I questioned myself for a minute….and I know its worth it…..at least for now.

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This around the time I usually do a Merry Xmas post and maybe even a Happy New Year one too with a list of things i want to change or do in 2012...This year not so much!

I haven't really be in the holiday mood which is extremely strange for me because I usually live for this time of the year...all the family time is the best ....this year my heart is just not into it.

I plan to have a simple Xmas as usual with my family and laugh, smile and drink but my usually planning out great things for us is not going down this year. I feel like I should be excited about this is the first Xmas that my niece really understand whats going on and the first xmas for the other one but instead i'm praying that it will come and go very quickly.

As for the New Year...I resolute to have no resolutions and just let all flow, decided that I'll just see how 2012 brings..hopefully it will be far better than 2011 because she was not good to me at all. Maybe a new home, new job and anything else the next 12 months bring me will be embraced with open arms.

So if I don't blog between now and the New Year let me wish yall



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Food

The holiday season is here and although I'm not in the Christmas Spirit this year I did attend a company holiday party with one of my friends!!! Let's just say I had lots of fun and the place was amazing!!! It was called Sax! it a French feel with red and gold everywhere and for your viewing delight every 15 minutes there was burlesque show!!!

I wish my pics would have came out so much better but it was super dark in there. Oh, the food was crazy good and it was a experience I ate of couple of things I would have never tried on a regular day. I did catch a few pic of our plate and I know if anyone can appreciate pic of food it would be Monique!!! She is foodie just like me!



Apple Crepes



this filet mignon was the best i had ever had plus the mash potatoes it rested on was to die for.

How Many Have You Said???

I saw this floating around fb and It had me dying laughing...one because I probably say alot of those things and when he goes into singing lil Wayne! lol

Quickie

It has been a little while since I have blogged personally. I gotta say i kinda miss this place...it keeps me sane. Even Though I haven't blogging I have been reading, especially some of my fave blogs I'm always on point with those.

I guess I should give a recap of what has been going on in the world of Sunshine!!!

-WORK is still the worst...and this new job is taking its toll on me...smh...this place stresses me out to end that I have developed a stress twitch in my eye..smdh..it happen all week until Saturday and it stops but back Monday morning. Oh..Let me tell you how since I have been working here the heffa has been gone majority of the time but has the nerve to write me emails about how nothing is getting done......and the final straw I haven't gotten paid on time since I have arrived here...and yep that has done it for me. I am in full find a new job for 2012, i just can't handle this place anymore and i truly understand why the turn over rate is so high.

I discovered over the past couple of months I have really realized alot..a whole lot!!! I have gained a new friend or two and I have also lost a couple of close friends..would say my best friends but that titled burned out years ago. Someone asked me if I was sad about that situation and a little bit but I have done all that I can to make it work or rather make it right. I'm extremely tired of being that bad guy and no one taking blame for their actions but all in all maybe it worked out for the better. One of my male friends said something to me the other day and he made a great point You grow up and grow apart, some people can't handle you changing and not being the same person you use to be..so they decide to lose you instead of growing with you. And he is right..maybe 2012 will bring better things for us but for now i have turned the page past that.

I have done a little clubbing lately which is totally out of the normal for me. It was fun, I discovered that way more of a flirt than I thought myself to be *shrugs* but I see now that I have outgrown the hell out of the club, i can't stand waiting in line, spending all this money on alcohol and all those people!! Nah, I think my old age has caught up with me. I will say my shoe game was killin' it the last time!! lmaoooo




Loved the shoe but my feet was on fire by the time we were hitting the exit!! Lawd the things we do for beauty.

Lil Richmond is till holding on strong, this has been a rough year for us. I love him with all my heart but actions speak louder than words and I wonder if I'm putting more into this than he is. When I thought I was going to back out on this relationship, he got sick. All that i felt before left and we are still together not because he is sick but i can't imagine life without him in it. He is till sick and they have no clue what is wrong with him and it hasn't been easy for him but he is holding on strong. Luv u babes!

I haven't told anyone this but I think I'm getting the baby itch!!! who would have known that would come creeping up on me. After i was told m y chances of having children was slim I ust blocked babies out of my system but out of nowhere it has creeped up and my biological clock is ticking!!! I haven't spoken this baby thing to Lil Richmond he would probably panic, babies are not his thing right now, so I guess ill just keep it between me and blogger lol

I haven't had really much to say so blogging has been real died but for 2012 i'm dedicating myself to blogging once a week!!! HOPEFULLY!

I'm the worst

yep...it is the truth i'm the worst right now!!! this damn job has taken me away from blog life and the damn holidays just ran up on me....I swear in 2012 i'm gonna do so much better!!! I promise!

But in the mean time I read this Vibe Vixen Article and Had to show it!!!!!

Why I Am NOT A Ride or Die Chick!!!


tell me what u think ladies!!!!