Lust.....Day 7

Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets

1. I don't like to kiss *pauses so yall can get the ooh and owww's out* I will do it but its not a big thing for me...now don't get me wrong i love a great kisser it is just not a huge thing for me *shrug*

2. I'm kind of a prude when it comes to sex...lol...its rare that i ever discuss sex with my friends and if i do i say little to nothing.

3. I'm a nympho!! I have to have it morning, noon and night!!! I feel for my future husband!! lol

4. I'm a flirt!! its true i flirt with everybody..anywhere...it's kind of funny because it happens so often that i rarely notice i do it.

5. This has to be the first time in my life i actually believe that i am in love! i have never had feelings like this for anyone and i have to say it feels wonderful.

6. I'm a light off kind of girl...I like the mystery of what is happening..it turns me on.

7. I love romance!! i love receiving little love notes and finding random things that remind me of him!

Every day via bbm I get a broadcast message from one of my favorite people W.J. Sometimes they are funny, some are inspirational and other make you stop what you are doing to think about what is being said and today was no different in that account...it was different because I responded to the message which I never do but the question was so appealing to me I just couldn't leave it alone.

Is it that we are ignorant to the signs of a failing relationship or do we just choose to ignore them?

This was definitely one of those questions that made you stop and say hmmmmm... and that i did...

I don't think we are ignorant to the signs of an falling relationship, in fact I know personally that the signs are there but I always chose to ignore the sign in hopes that things will fix themselves. I have sat in plenty of relationship just hoping and praying that one day that will just come around and we can be happy again. I ignore the signs and then complain about what is not going on with with us with my friends instead of my partner... which leads no discussion in about the relationship which gets us no where. I hate when things go down hill i try my hardest to keep things together so no one can say that I didn't try hard enough.

But on the other hand does the other person even recognize or realize that the relationship failing.....

I want to hear from yall!!!

Gluttony....Day 6

Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures

1. Maury Povich!! I live for my days off and I can catch Maury and The Paternity Test shows!!

2. Breyers Reese Cup Ice cream!! Who knew that peanut butter ice cream could be so good.

3. Shopping, Shopping and more shopping! this is probably why I never have any money but sometimes i just feel the need to buy something to make my day complete!

4. Reality TV...yep i watch it all Bad Girls club to Fantasia For real! I'm addicted

5. Tall Athletic Men! *sigh*

6. Word Mole on my BB..I swear this game has taken over my life!

7. SEX! SEX! SEX!

Greed..Day 5

Day 5- Greed. Seven wordly material desires.

1. To own a Maserati GranTurismo S. and if you don't know what that is..its a car...a fast car.

2. A closet full of Guiseppe Zanotti, Jimmy Choo and Louboutin shoes..*sigh* that just made my heart skip a beat!

3. All that is new technology..phones, computers, television etc...i want it all.

4. Iced out jewerly! lol probably more bracelets and necklaces more than rings. I like the bling!

5. Bags, Bags and more bags...Gucci, Fendi, Prada, Valentino...would look so wonderful on my arm!

6. A check every month for no reason. It doesn't have to be an outrageous amount of money just an 4 digit amount starting with an 3 or 4 would be nice.

7. A new house with no expenses...I love where i am at but its not mine...i want what i want with no expense to go with it.

Sloth....Day 4

Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.

1. Go visit G-ma in the nursing home! I know I'm wrong for it because she practically raised me while my parent were off work 2 or 3 jobs. I just don't like to see his drugged up and not moving around.

2. Devote more time to my school work! lawd knows I try to but i just push it off to the next day and the next day and the next day.

3. Call and check on my god children. I love them to death and want the best for them but sometimes i get so caught up in my own stuff that i forget about the little ones in my life.

4. End things with Bird.. officially...*cover eyes* its a process!

5. Call my brother just to tell him i love him. I spend so much time calling him to cry and ask for money that never stop and call just to tell him i love him

6. Visit with my great aunt. I say I'm going to visit the devil...that's what us great nieces and nephew nicknamed her as a child but never get around to it. She might have been mean to me as a child but she taught me alot of life.

7. Express how much I love my male friends i grew up with. I lean on them for alot of things and they never complain or bitch about it...they lil street dudes but i know they wanna hear someone tell them how much they are loved.

Wrath...Day 3

Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.

1. People who think they are always right! Hint: why i hate my ex!

2. People who drive slow!! *sigh* I'm getting mad just thinking about it! lol

3. When people put their feet on me that doesn't not have some type of covering! I hate feet!

4. Stupid pointless emails! My ex sends me emails almost everyday saying nothing what so ever but good morning, good night etc...dude cut that shit out!

5. People who don't follow directions because I hate repeating myself!

6. Bad ass kids and their parents who act as if they don't see the stuff they are doing!

7. Being judged by where I am from..Okay i didn't grow up in the greatest neighborhood nor do any of the boys i grew up with conventional jobs...but my parents raised me right and i know how to survive in or out of the hood.

Envy...Day 2

Seven things you lack and covet.

1. I covet patience. I don't have much of it, it doesn't matter if it's with people or just in general..i lack it alot!

2. I envy those who have great relationships with their mothers. My mother and I are very distant with each other, I want the kind of relationship that i can share everything with her. the relationship she shares with my sister.

3. I lack obedience with almost everything. I can never really see something out because I'm not dedicated to it. I just don't have the obedience to stuck to it.

4. I envy those in happy relationships. It's only because I want that, and i can honestly say i have only had 1 happy relationship with a boyfriend.

5. I envy those who aren't like me and don't have dyslexia. It affects almost everything I do school wise..hell just in life in general and makes it just a little bit harder for me..I thought i would have gotten better with age but yeah i think not.

6. I envy those who can swim..*sad face* I want to learn but I have a fear of drowning.

7. I envy those we have children. Maybe because I know that my chances of having them are slim that I feel so much envy toward them and what they have.

PRIDE....Day 1

Seven Great Things About Yourself...

1. I'm a great event planner! I can throw something together at a moments notice and make sure it comes out nice!

2. I have great calves! which makes my legs look great..its from from all my years of being a cheerleader..Thanks Mom for making me do it!

3. I'm a great Actress i don't know if that is a good or bad thing but I can definitely put on show if need be.

4. I'm a great listener. I think that why people drop so much of their business onto me.

5. I'm a great debater!! If i feel strongly about something then it is on!!

6. I'm a dancer!! lol..not like that but if i feel it i just break out dancing no matter the time or place.

7. My eyes...I proud myself on my eyes..I've always been told how they nice and deep they look!

Back to the Challenge

Once again I'm back to doing another challenge but this time its a lil short one to pass the time away. Ms. StarrlaMonae sent this my way and it looked interesting so here it is...

7 Deadly Sins Challenge

Day 1 - Pride. Seven great things about yourself.

Day 2 - Envy. Seven things you lack and covet.

Day 3 - Wrath. Seven things that piss you off.

Day 4 - Sloth. Seven things you neglect to do.

Day 5 - Greed. Seven worldly material desires.

Day 6 - Gluttony. Seven guilty pleasures.

Day 7 - Lust. Seven love secrets

I've been sitting at my desk all morning long doing nothing..... I have plenty of things to do but my focus just isn't here. I haven't really been able to focus on anything since the of the month hit. I knew this day would come..this month would come...this week would come but I have just been pushing it to the back of my mind. I've been trying to keep myself so very busy with just anything so I wouldn't have to time to think or deal with it. I glanced that the calendar on Saturday and it made me literally sick to my stomach to see that October 5th was itching up, the the anniversary of one of the longest and saddest days of my life. I thought that time heals all wounds to point it has brought my scar to a clear but I anticipate that day and dread it all year long. I still remember everything about that moment, about that week, about it all...I thought that time would drown it out of my thoughts but i guess its just one of those things that your mind and body won't let go of.

I had to flip the calendar at my desk over and take the date off of my phone just so I could relax a little and try to keep this strong act going until i get home. Saturday I realized that the anniversary of that day was slowly approaching and it made me sick to my stomach..I lied and told my friends and family that it was the food I ate but it was all the sorrow and pain making things complicated. I still feel that same pain I felt almost 3 years ago when it all happened, i still remember everything about that day, where I was, what I was doing, who broke the news to me and the long days and nights that came after that. I never wore the outfit I was in the night he passed away..i never dyed my hair that color again nor do I wear that jewelry anymore it all had that night of tears attached to it. just when I think time has healed my wounds October comes along and makes it all clear to me once again. October use to be my favorite month not too hot not too cold, Halloween and all the Homecomings all the excitment but now I just wish we could skip right over it like it never happened, even if that did it happen it wouldn't bring him back nor would it ease the butterflies that have made home in my stomach. I know he is kind of disappointed in me and how I handled this situation i sure he wouldn't want the tears or the sadness but when you lose someone so close to you its kind of sad to move on.....

Searching...

Just when I thought I had an idea what i wanted to be for halloween i found some more options *confused face* I knew I should have stopped looking when I decided it would be one of those 3 from a preveious post...I blame Krissy for it because she posted a link to a costume website which got me search through their inventory too and of course I found more of them that I love...

Now one of them I'm on the fence with because it is kinda extra sexy and the other I just think is cute and maybe a little different..well they both are different..at least different for me...

French Flight Caption

Now this one i'm on the fence with everybody loves it

but me idk..I think its cute but i'm scared my boobs are tooooo big for this...

what if one of them pop out i will be scared for life.

Nasty Curves

Its simply but it a lil sexy to it....

LAWWDDDD have mercy decisions..decisions....