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I'm young, black, single and fabulous!!! Trying to live my life to the fullest before its all said and done with . I'm just trying to figure it all out!


Tuesday, November 15, 2011

I miss he!

I miss he!!! I never thought in a million years I wold be saying that but I really do miss him. It has taken my years to admit this but I do, I know our time together had to come to an end for multiply reason the main one being I grew up and got smart fast and he relationship had to burn. A couple of weeks ago i thought fb friending him but i didn't want him to know he still crosses my mind.

I probably shouldn't even feel this way especially if i went into detail about how bad our relationship was...lawd knows it was extremely bad but when we weren't trying to be lovers and being friends he was good at it. He took me alot about life the good, bad and ugly of it all. Its been 7 years since we had any type of contact with each other and it was my call but at that time I needed the break from him more than just a break. Now I find myself thinking about him alot, even thought about getting his number from one of our mutual friend to speak with him but I'm not sure if that would end well. Instead, i stalk him on fb..lol..and check on him from time to time with a mutual friends. We even run into each other from time to time because of these mutual friends but because I'm a jerk I never give him more than a hey. If he only how sometimes I yearn for his listening ear and his asshole advice, we laughed alot and shared something that I once consider special...and it ended and now i want that old thang back!


Newy said...

Ok...I'm going to tell you a something that may comfort you. I knew a couple who were 23 and 26 respectively when they dated as a couple. Their relationship was a roller coaster for the 2 years they were together. So they broke up...on bad terms. The terms were so bad, they didn't speak for a year. Then, he was on her mind so much, she reached out to him, mainly because she needed closure. They had lunch, talked things out and became friends. They remained friends for 12 years. Then one day, during one of their visits. They sat and talked. They were no longer young adults with raging hormones but real grown-ups with some experience under their belt. They began to date again, getting to know the grown-ups they had become on a more romantic level. It was the best decision we ever made. I love my husband. He is my rock and my best friend. Sometimes you have to let go and let time, space and God heal those wounds. In our case, it was right person, wrong time the first time around.

sunshinestar110 said...

awwww...now that is amazing! sadly, to say I don't think him and I could ever be one ever again for a list of reason but friends i can see that happening. We are 10 years older and wiser now so i'm sure that continuing our friendship could be the way to go.


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