Tuesday, November 15, 2011
I miss he!
I miss he!!! I never thought in a million years I wold be saying that but I really do miss him. It has taken my years to admit this but I do, I know our time together had to come to an end for multiply reason the main one being I grew up and got smart fast and he relationship had to burn. A couple of weeks ago i thought fb friending him but i didn't want him to know he still crosses my mind.
I probably shouldn't even feel this way especially if i went into detail about how bad our relationship was...lawd knows it was extremely bad but when we weren't trying to be lovers and being friends he was good at it. He took me alot about life the good, bad and ugly of it all. Its been 7 years since we had any type of contact with each other and it was my call but at that time I needed the break from him more than just a break. Now I find myself thinking about him alot, even thought about getting his number from one of our mutual friend to speak with him but I'm not sure if that would end well. Instead, i stalk him on fb..lol..and check on him from time to time with a mutual friends. We even run into each other from time to time because of these mutual friends but because I'm a jerk I never give him more than a hey. If he only how sometimes I yearn for his listening ear and his asshole advice, we laughed alot and shared something that I once consider special...and it ended and now i want that old thang back!