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Wednesday, June 3, 2009

Love and I are breaking up tonite....

Where should I start with me and that thing called Love.....

Love and I have been through a lot over my 26 years on this earth..I remember when Love was simple and easy. He likes you, you like him...He brings you little gifts and in return you hold his hand at recess!! Those were the days!!! Now love is so much more now than a gift there and a little kiss here.
Love has taken me on a roller coaster ride that never seems to end.

My first real love was when I was about 14 or15 years old, a freshman in high school you couldn't tell me nothing. He was a junior and the hottest thing on the block because everyone wanted him, but i was the one who got him!!! He took me through a lot over the next couple of yrs.From fist fights with girls out from my house to having babies with my friends. I was in love him and stood by his side through it all. Until one day I was grew up....and moved on

Then it was the "inmate" When met him he was the greatest, his only down fall was he just had to be home by 10pm. I thought it was because He just had strict grandparent but i later found out that was because his ass was on HOUSE ARREST!!! but me I continued on with him and his controlling ways..Why u ask??...Because i was in LOVE!!! He kept me away from my Friends ,family I only had time for him. He put me in the middle of his drama..from selling drugs till him getting 21yrs in prison.
I stood by him and later found out they he stood by a lot of females. I closed that chapter and moved on to a new one.... he broke my heart too..just like my high school love.

Then it was "Worthless". I knew him since elementary school..he treated me so bad then but we got together later and life and i found out that he was good for nothing. NO JOB, NO MONEY, NO CAR...NOTHING!!! Just pure worthless, but once again he made me feel some type of way and I loved him for that. that chapter is closing as we speak...

Love has thrown me nothing but curve balls and Love continues to do so ...through all those bad relationships it has been one Love who has always been consistent through it all...hmmm lets call him "Bird"
Bird and i have always had an good relationship..NO drama, no Problems and from the first day I met him, I loved him!!! he watched me grow up into the women i am today. Its kinda like the Bow wow song goes..when I'm with somebody all i think about is you...when I'm alone all i think about is you. he is always on my mind!!! When I'm with other people I always compare them to Bird and they don't match up. For 7 yrs I have loved him and its not anything I wouldn't do for him. He's the greatest!!! a good friend, listener, good support system, always there for me.. and the sex is WONDERFUL!!! but there is a problem...i don't know if he loves me the way i love him! when i express how deep my feelings run for him he just sidelines it and never talks about it again.I'm scared that i will be stuck in the friend zone forever with him and lord know I love him and want so much more, but instead of getting my heart broke again by this man...I'm just going to break up with Love tonight and send him on his way.
Oh love we have been through a lot but my heart can't take anymore..so tonight Love and I will part way. Maybe Love will find me again, holding on to love had to end...

I'm going to miss you love....
XOXOXO

4 comments:

Bkels said...

Nooooooo not Bird :'(

LC said...

OK. This is my first time to your blog. But I love this entry!! Dang I feel your pain. And that quote about love bring a rollercoaster that never ends is so true. I wish love was like how it was back in the day when we were young. Stuff is so complicated now. Dang. But neways I love this entry. Kudos.

msjjohnson1 said...

Damn i'm i being real emotional this week or is this blog soooo good and then this drake and trey songz track is playing the same time making me want to burst into to tears...

i soo feel your pain i've been through some stuff too in my little bit of times...

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**applause**

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