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Friday, October 2, 2009

Those words....

Today I said something out loud I have never said since that day in 2007. It brought butterflies to my stomach...and not in a good way..It made me feel sick and I had to sit down. Those words left my mouth with much hesitation...much disgust...with much pain. Those words made it so real ,so permanent for me...so craved in stone. Those words felt like pure torture to me...nothing but pain. Those words should have never been spoken until we were old and gray and Life was almost over. Instead those words were said today..while I'm in my prime. Those words cut hard and straight with no remorse. Those word will be spoken forever in October for the rest of my life..Those words are going to be repeated over and over again by so many people who don't realize how much they really do hurt me. Those words will forever be marked with sadness and grief...Those words are The Anniversary of his Death...those words make me sick every time I hear them.........

4 comments:

Epitome said...

*big hugs...huge hugs*

Beauty in Rare Form said...

I just posted about the exact same thing on my "Bye Bye Baby" post. I think I feel your pain. Is it the anniversary of someone's death that you lost? That is my case and yesterday was the 1 year anniversary of it.

My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Ttyl,

☆Reese✮ said...

This made me tear up girl, I'm sorry I can't be there to give you a big ol' hug. I do feel your pain & I don't quite know what to say

JStar said...

I know its hard...Its been 13 years that my brother has been gone, and it still feels like yesterday when he taught me how to tie my shoe...It doesnt get easier...


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