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I'm young, black, single and fabulous!!! Trying to live my life to the fullest before its all said and done with . I'm just trying to figure it all out!


Wednesday, September 30, 2009

Prince Charming

When I was younger I just wanted Prince Charming to whisk me away on his white horse and live happily ever after. Now I just want Prince Charming to whisk me away in his white Escalade and we just a good week...then a good lifetime....well,if it last that long. Now I haven't thought about my Prince Charming in along while but then I checked the mail yesterday and there it was...A WEDDING INVITATION!!*cue the dramatic music* Weddings always remind me that my Prince Charming has yet to find me. Now if you had asked me 10yrs ago if I thought that I would be single and not any kind of serious relationship at 26yrs old, I would have told you no not at all. Back then I had it all planned out in my head...I would have my degree...be teaching...driving the car i want..be with the man of my dreams and planning a wedding by now. Clearly none of that is what happening right now. My Love life is so uneventful right now! I go out of a couple of dates with men who aren't even worth my time and then I cut them off for more reasons than one and then its right back to the same ole same ole, which I am so bored with right now. When I meet a dude and feel like he has potential to be something more he proves me to be wrong and then its over....back to square one it is. never in a million year I would think that I would be sitting here blogging about having NO PRINCE CHARMING!!! :-( At one point of time I thought maybe I was ME...Maybe it was ME who needed to change something about myself to find a guy worth my while....but i soon realized that changing me wasn't going to change them, and if he can't accept me for who i am...then the hell wit em. I sit at all these damn bridal showers and bachelorette parties with all these happy relationship heffas and wanna pop all of them in the mouf and each and every time they ask the same question from the time before..So when u getting married?...and I have the same response every time...When my million dollar man shows up!...lol..but truth be told he doesn't have to have a million dollars for me to love him..but it would be nice. He just has to be himself and accept me with all my faults and my attitude which can be out of control but I'm working on it.

Sometimes I sit and think make I already missed out on my Prince Charming maybe he was a frog at first and I didn't stick around long enough to find out he was a Price....or maybe he'll in a another city or country waiting for me to move there so he can confess his undying love for me....or maybe he's a different race then me, which is perfectly ok cuz i like brown, yellow, Puerto Rican and Haitian but all the guys I date right now are African American or maybe I lost him to another female who he doesn't know how to tell that he not that into her or sadly I lost him...maybe he died years ago I never got meet him or maybe I did and never got to tell him....Those are things I wonder about since all my friends are in serious relationships!! When is my turn?!?...When will I be happy in a relationship? Because This Last relationship i was in was far from happy! I was Happy when it was over...sorry buddy..better luck next time?...I guess. I know u don't need a man for happiness but It would be nice to have someone to share my happy, sad and mad days with instead always looking for my friends to hear me out. It just would be nice to have a warm body laying next to me at night and not some dude who i want to send away ASAP!! lol... So in the word of my sister form another mother Epitome ...Is it too much to have a big peen male version of me? I'm starting to think it is".


Lady Dee said...

Girl don't give up hope. Sometimes there are lessons we learn in our singleness. I feel just like you. When is it my turn? But I'd rather wait for the right one then rush into something with the wrong one. Everything happens in time. But I feel u about them bridal showers. I hate them things always the same questions and looks like u damaged or incomplete or something. Single girls ain't damaged dammit. Lol.

Lipglass and Handbags said...

Hunni I feel the same way!! Sad thing is i'm only 21!! I was ub a four year, unhappy stint with the ex and had to realize that happiness is worth more than having him, that buddy had to go to. I look all my friends though and they seem to be willing to sacrifice that happiness to have a Mr. "When a man finds a wife he finds a good thing." He'll find you when you least expect it....Have fun and enjoy you while you can do what you please, one day that'll change. Marriage isn't all its cracked up to be...IT'S HARD!!! LOVE YA BLOG TOO, PLEASE FOLLOW ME!!!

Romeia said...

Damn you for making me cry...again (this shit has got to stop!) and you got me, with my luck I'm gonna be single forever and just cater to my baby instead (sucks to be his woman)

Besides, we getting married anyway

khaki said...

Maybe you should look at it like this... Your Prince Charming is out there right now but he isnt ready for you. Youre the bomb.com (as Beloved One would say) and the man that's out here for you isnt ready to handle you just yet. Once he gets his shit together, he will come along in his white bentley to scoop you up. Meanwhile, while youre waiting, you're becoming a better woman and experiencing the sweetness of being single. There's nothing wrong with waiting.

Dont worry... I'll always be there to put my hand in yo back pocket.