I have never been the type of female to sit back and let another person lead. I'm usually the one who come full force out the gate jumps to the first of line and lead the way. Hell almost every one of boyfriends or man I entertain I have lead the way for them...I shined the light of the path and they stood behind me and did what I deemed best for us and that was how liked things. I just like to know what to expect even when the unexpected is coming...no surprises for me. in elementary school I was the line leader I just continued with that through out my life...Sorry?
But I decided to go into this thing with him....and for sake us confusion lets call him Lil Richmond...much different than I had in the past with all the other males in my life. So against my inner voice telling me don't do it I took off my follow the leader hat and let him try it on for a change.....*cover eyes* Its an scary feeling to relinquish all that control onto someone else...Not being control kind of makes me nerves because I have no idea where he is going lead me. Since the moment I met him I made a promise to myself and other that I wouldn't control this situation like i do all the other and that I have stuck too. Whatever move Lil Richmond makes I usually feed off of that and that's how things have been operating so far. Its hard not to fall back into my old ways and grab the steering wheel and steer for the both of us but it is kind of a refreshing experience I may add. I guess in life you are suppose to let the man lead but I'm a control freak....I'm trying to change my ways but sometimes i feel like i know whats best for me and better yet the both of us *shrugs* hey blame it on the fact that I'm a Taurus and That is what we do!
My big panties are officially on and I'm going to keep this thing going but if this shit doesn't work out I'm going right back t be the conductor of this train!!!!!