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Tuesday, June 15, 2010

Single For The Rest Of My Life #15


OK..so that banner is not how I feel about anyone...I'm just saying That I am sooooooooo over this love and dating thing so if things don't work out with Lil Richmond and I that this girl right here is giving up on the whole love thing for sure.

I have been doing this whole dating thing since I was 16 years old...trying to find someone well lets not say find but entertaining all these different men with the hope of it becoming something so much more than what it turned out to be. I have had it and done it all..from the good ole church boys to the thugged out bad boys on the corner I have been with them all and in the end I'm getting too old and tired to keep playing this game. Of course like most little girls I dreamed of having it all the perfect man....perfect wedding, children and job but in reality it doesn't happen the way Cinderella tried to lead us to believe. I have given some of the men in my life 100% and in return got nothing so the days entertaining is coming to a close. With Lil Richmond I went outside of my character and did things I wouldn't usually do for array of reason but I decided to let me guard down with him and see what the outcome is...truthfully and this about to take all of me to say but I like him...I like him alot so I'm putting in alot more of me into this one. I feel if all this doesn't go right that I'm saying FUCK LOVE AND FUCK DATING!! I will just live the rest of my life a single woman doing whatever single woman do later off in life hey maybe I'll become a cougar and shiiiii. I've come to the point in my life that I would throw all of this shit in the trash and keep it moving maybe just stick to getting dicked down by Bird for as long as I can make that happen. I'm getting too ld to keep going on this roller coaster of love and dating...Its making me sick to my stomach. I'm sitting back right now and watching all the people around me be "happy" and get married, have babies and that jazz..shit some of these people are on there second marriages hell i can't even get one marriage....not even one relationship to work beyond 6 months *shrug* so I turned myself around a little bit for Lil Richmond to see where that would lead me I'm hoping and praying that it leads me in the right directions and not back to the start gate because if this shit with him don't work I'm calling it all off. I'll just stay single or marry one of my gay friends so we can have a fly ass wedding...if i ever want a child I'll just hit up the sperm bank or call up someone who I know make cute babies and call it a life....

5 comments:

LionsVictory said...

I understand you completely. I was ready to settle down and get it over with because the whole dating scene is not fun! But, you can't give up!

JStar said...

I have been here girl...believe me...more than once...but dont give up...Just stop looking and hoping for it...It comes when you least expect it....and these guys in between are just in our lives to show us what we dont want...so we can appreciate the real one when he comes along...

I had TWO failed marriages....I SWORE I would NEVER EVER walk down that aisle...My ex husband and I have been seperated for 5 years now...and I have found someone that may make me chance my mind....He asked me to marry him last year and I changed my telephone number lol....But I am tired of being alone....I want a man who is willing to change my Depends when I get old lol (I asked him that too and he said that "I am that man") lol....

Dont give up...Just do you in the mean time....He WILL come...when the time is right...

★Starrla Monae☆ said...

*screams and crys* I'on wanna be single for the rest of my life! I act tough like it doesn't bother me but it does. I don't let everyone know that though. I see all my friends getting engaged & married and having babies and it gets to me especially since I'm not in a relationship and I don't have any options. I just try and keep busy....and try not to think about it. That's hard as well especially when everywhere I turn, someone is pregnant or engaged or planning a wedding. Geesh....I just speak like he's coming. I speak about WHEN he's shows up and WHEN I meet him. I have an inkling of faith and hope that these guys aren't all the same and one day I'll be the one engaged then married then pregnant. LOL

tha unpretentious narcissist © said...

everyone has been there. imagine how it feels when you've done the marriage thing and have to get back to dating and that shit seems hard as hell.

life happens. don't give up on the cinderella dream because it could happen. her's in the most realistic out of the fairytales, because it just shows that when you work hard and are unappreciated someone will come in and rescue you. like a prince.

you can have that. even if it doesn't work out with your current dude. don't let ppl, time, or bad circumstances rob you of you "happy ever after". everyone deserves that. and it's coming for you...

Enigma Jones said...

I feel the same way. I keep telling my friend taht if I still have no serious prospects by the time sI'm thirty (next summer) then my presnt to myself for my 30th b-day will be my first of a million kitties.

This dating ish is tiring!!!

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