I hate my job!! I hate this job with a passion. I hate it so much that every morning I'm sick from the thought of having to sit in this fucking hell hole for 8 hours...I mean sick to my stomach sick and some days I'm praying to the porcelain goddess because I just can't stand to go..actually thought it was morning sickness at one point..maybe I was pregnant but after countless doctors visits and home test we soon found out it was the job.
Everyday its the same ole bullshit just a different day. I sit at my desk right now listening to the radio because its the only thing that gets me through the day. I think I have surfed every website none to man and spent more than enough money online shopping just to pass the days. I'm thankful that I have a job but this one is not the fit for me. When I first started here it was to give me change of the same ole same ole but this spot is not meant for a young ambitious woman like me. My days are filled with a whole lot of nothing......NOTHING...8 hours of sitting and sitting and sitting. I know my worth to the world is far more than this. I often sit here and wonder how in the hell did I end up here end up in this position. People say it must be great to have a job when you do nothing but have you ever sat at a desk for hours and had absolutely nothing to do...yeah not so amusing at all. I would rather be super busy than having to be this sitting duck. The people i work with are the worse of the worse I think sometimes they forget that I really don't care but they continue to share all of their personally info with me. Plus..I'm one of only 6 African Americans in the building the youngest and probably the most out spoken because these people have to checked on a often bases. This was not the plan I had for myself years ago..stuck in this dead end job barely getting by...Thank god I don't have any children because we would be on straight struggle mode. I get treated like an third class citizen in here and when I miss A day of work its like i sold my soul to do so. When I'm not here my position is treated as if it never exist...no one cover the nothing that I do but when i return there is always a story about how busy it was..BUSY?!?! when ? where? because I'm never busy. They try to treat me as the she'll do it girl...always want me to do the things that no one else wants to do...who am I Peter put off. I'm on full force find a new job everyday I apply and apply and apply........I apply for things I'm not qualified for and jobs that are to far away ..hey you gotta take a chance when you are not happy. I use to fake the happiness and excitement to be here but now I just come to work sit leave and come back with this half ass smile on my face it means that everyone here will leave me alone. I don't want to go to the company picnic nor the happy hour events I don't want tot do shit with y'all people I don't fuck with you when I'm at work i definite don't want to be friends with you off the clock and on my time...The only good thing I can say has come out of this job is motivated me to stop procrastinating and go back to school, I just can't imagine myself doing this shit for the rest of my life nope I just won't let that happen. Being that I do nothing at work I have nothing but free time to go back to school online...I guess I'll be putting this 8 hours of nothing tomy advantage for now